This is my first post on here, and I really wanna give you folks a good idea of who I am. My name is Tristan, in case you didn't already guess. I live in the US. I was born in Vermont, but currently I live in Kansas. I am twenty one years old, turning twenty two in May. I was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome at an early age. I also have an autistic younger sister. My father also has Aspergers, though he was diagnosed fairly recently (meaning, in the last two or three years).
I'm a very positive thinker. I have been a very positive thinking person for pretty much my entire life, even as a child. My mom tells me that I rarely cried. Unfortunately I have a slightly bad habit of being quick to threaten or attack people who threaten me, my family, or the people I love. My family is quite big. I have five sisters (three older and two younger) and two older brothers. My greatest fear is of death. I'm terribly afraid of dying. I almost killed myself once, and I still have nightmares about what would have happened if I had succeeded.
My major interest in life is film, but I am not sure whether or not I want to either write about films or make films. It's been a tough decision for me and I'm most likely just going to end up doing both. I took Videography classes in high school, and I actually learned quite a lot about from them. My favorite film is Fargo(1996) but I have at least one hundred or so other favorite films. If anyone has any interest in knowing what the rest of them are, feel free to let me know.
The only other thing I have any interest in is raising children, however I know that I am not currently ready to do that yet! I know when I will be. I love children and I get along great with them. I've done a lot of babysitting and I generally know a lot about how they think. They really are an important aspect of life. They're the ones that are going to be running the world in twenty five years, and it's important for us to teach them how to express themselves. My entire family feels the same way. My mom wrote a book about raising children (How to Raise Children as Peacemakers by Peggy Goding), and most of my older siblings have jobs or hobbies that involve education.
I am also gay, and have been open about it for a while now. I made a lot of stupid mistakes throughout middle school and high school and I wasted my time with a lot of other boys who were just as confused and thoughtless as me and I think a lot of that had to do with personal anxieties and depression problems that I had. I had a close friend throughout high school who I thought I could trust who ended up betraying me in pretty much every possible way (not even joking) and due to me being very reckless and then eventually using what I knew about myself as a form of therapy and inspiration, I abandoned my belief in god. This does not mean that I am against religion. I am an atheist who encourages people to have faith, because I for one believe faith can be a very strong thing. I have no place in my personal life for faith, but the people around me have faith, my family has faith, my partner has faith, and I would not be bothered in the least if my children were faithful human beings either.
Anyway, that's pretty much all I can think of for now. If you have any questions or anything to say at all, feel free. I respect and care for everyone and I hope that this little mini-bio or whatever hasn't weirded you out or anything. I'm hoping that this place will be good for me because I don't know a lot of people like me and I'm always open to meeting new folks who understand this part of me. I'm going to go to bed now, so I likely won't check back here until sometime tomorrow, so try not to feel the need to respond right away. You're all cool.
27 Jan 2011, 6:12 am
