I'm 24 years old been struggling with my undergrad for the last 6 years. Born and raised in the US. I am the usual social limited reaching person with one two close friends (one of them border-line hate-loves me cause I can not contact them for long intervals; the other adores me as he is more socially quirky than me). Ignoring my elementary/middle-school, but at high-school/college, people always told me I am silly and weird (which isn't a bad thing in college).
I'm in the process, for the last week, of finding an evaluation for adults. Two day ago I just got a response via email from children's hospital michigan, under their research group.
Took me a long time to get the courage to email/call them. As my parents don't believe me about it; and see me as a delinquent. My father is very successful (MD and PhD.), and a delinquency under him is doing bad in school. And his form of empowerment is just pushing people harder (not physically); this leads to many of my meltdowns. I always end up using cheap sensitive words on him to escalate things and get the conversations over sooner. My two sisters are the ones who decided I have Asperger syndrome last year.
They even deny my biggest marker, delayed language. To the point I was in ESL in elementary school; I have an accent till today. Later on, anger management. I can pull at my hair and facial-hair till there are spots with no hair. (which I end up having to shave my face; instead of the usual buzz). I also have the tendency to look over my left shoulder. (which I didn't notice till a classmate sitting near me mentioned I do it when I'm talking in class; my parents haven't seen this, so I must be doing it in extreme anxiety; this happened last semester).
I do very good, even have fun, with my biology-like classes (and my Japanese-language classes). However I can't focus at all for the others.
Except sociology-like classes; they are fun, as you always get praised for BSing. Intro to Logic was a rare A+ (hehe). I will probably have to repeat organic chemistry; I keep losing interest in that class. The lecture happens so fast, and I don't understand the lecture if I take notes. That class needs really complex notes. With no homework I freak-out trying to figure out what to study. The lectures are recorded, but make no sense without the teachers in-class notes.
Lets end it there. Oh I have a very strong sense of smell and hearing; with the usual annoyances and conveniences from it.
24 Mar 2011, 1:54 pm
