Hi, i'm a newbie called Brigita and i'm 15 years old. I live in a small country in Europe with my dad. I've found this website after I wrote the words 'Asperger's syndrome' to google because I was searching for more information about it.
I'm not sure if I have Aspergers, but I do suspect it, because I display signs like difficulties socializing with others, having special a bit obsessive interests, inability to understand or describe my emotions or feelings, lack of empathy, preference to be alone, having a hard time trying to express myself to others(hardly finishing sentences, stuttering, incoherence), kinda childish behaviour, akward body language (i don't notice it myself, but the others are telling me that i look really wierd when i'm using gestures while talking), noticing small details and missing the large picture sometimes, doing the same thing over and over again, talking in unusual words and phrases, taking too much time to think before i answer the questions, forgetting to look in the eyes of the person while socializing. People sometimes say that I don't understand the simplest things Also I remember some things from my early childhood, and as a child I was considered wierd by my mother and grandparents and I was taken to the doctors specializing in mental disorders but they didn't diagnose me with anything back then. As a child, I had a hard time socializing with other kids and so I convinced my mother to let me stay home instead of going to the kindergarten and I had sleep disturbances, strong attachment to my toy, caterpillar, obsessive interests/fascination objects (i was trying to write a book about snakes and looking for them in the forests and reading books about them when i was 8 years old, and i adored chinchillas i had 6 chinchillas and watned more), tendency to take things without asking, not learning to act "appropriately" around people, sensibility to some foods (i used to puke a lot, not eat, hide food, throw food away), not feeling strong attachment and not being tactile to my parents, not being sensible to others' emotional pain.
When I was thirteen years old the doctors diagnosed me as having depression, sociophobia and other, specific phobia. They put me on Sertraline and sometimes they prescribe me Alprazolamum,. My psychologist said that I display the signs of some kind of a personality disorder, but I do think that she's mistaking it with Aspergers because i don't fit the criteria of any personality disorder. I also have the genetic predisposition to schizophrenia, depression and generalized anxiety disorder.
My summer holiday is coming up soon and when it starts, i'm planning to look for another doctor, and ask her or his advice about my suspicion about Aspergers.
My interests and things that I really like are mental disorders, writing down my dreams to my dream journal, drawing, cosmos, cats, the color blue, looking at the insides of the mechanisms, poison, counting snails (like when i'm walking around the forest).
The things that I hate or just dislike are Maths, blood, crowds of people, hot weather, a lot of people talking all at once, antipsychotic medications, sour foods, laundry detergents and bullying.
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nevermind my english, because it's not my main language and i don't know it very well.