I fit the criteria for aspergers, and every single online test I could find from Facebook ones to more professional ones says I have it, many people from yahoo support group for people with aspergers says that it is very likely that I have it, and even my parents have implied to me that they think I may have it, but I have not bee diagnosed yet. and I am afraid to. I hate being a burden to someone and I also hate people thinking that I am hypochondriac because I believe I have it. But I am not doing well in school, and it is very hard for me to concentrate on work and even things I enjoy doing because I have to keep switching around because I get board of something quickly, but at the same time I can spend several hours (5+) doing something I love without stopping.
I don't know what to do, I don't have a doctor that I go to, and I am afraid of being treated as a slow person (because people now just treat me as lazy, and I am not lazy! I cannot do nothing!), and I am afraid of being a burden... but at the same time I am afraid that I wont be able to live out my life's dreams due to my fear of a diagnosis and knowing exactly why I am who I am and why I act differently than everyone else, and why it is hard for me to do things...
what can I do? I am 19 years old, and I plan on living with my parents until I go off to college, but I dont want to fail college either...
what do i do?