Well I was diagnosed today. No big surprise. Throw in some ADHD to make things more fun lol.
My life literally changed in about 15 minutes. 35 years of thinking everything was my fault gone, flushed down the toilet. I'm ready to start over with a new understanding. I know it won't be easy, but it's not all my fault.
This second time around looking into this before I was diagnosed my wife was literally online looking for ways to deal with this... Workbooks and all that crap. I was like whoa there slow down a little. I've been faking my way through life for 35 years I need to figure out who I am before trying to figure out how to have a relationship! She also pissed me off a little bit before being official by freaking touching me so much on purpose like I was lying lol. Not sure if this can work out for me. Today she was a little more respectful though. Hell she might not even like the real me!
The guy I'm working with is pretty awesome. He even agreed that the first thing to work on is finding out who I really am and getting my focus under control. I told him I needed to decompress from 35 years of bs and he was all like I know man, just don't do it all at once!
One day at a time is what I keep telling myself...