Hello,
I have autistic traits but I don't believe they're bad enough to get a diganosis. People just say I'm a little backwards, shy, or a little autistic. They say I don't understand jokes and take things literally. I do have problems with noises and when I was younger I had a lot of problems with touch (clothing, being held, touched by others) and change (I had to take the same route to school and do everything at a specific time).
I work as a cashier and I stuggle a lot with this but I've come to realize that people will like me by the work I do and not my personality. If I smile and do my job, things are ok. I do make a lot of mistakes because of my poor working memory. My mom thinks this was the best thing that has ever happened to me because it has helped with my social skills.
I've never had any friends. I've had people who were kind and helpful, but no real friends. And to be honest, I really don't want friends. I mean sometimes I want friends because I don't want people thinking I'm anti-social, which isn't true, and sometimes I want to be like eveyone else and go out on a friday night because I know the fun they experience. But when the decision is left to me I usually choose to stay home to read or listen to music.
I love music. I listen to a song repetetively. It's like a drug to me.
When I get excited or stressed, I twist my fingers, rub my hands together, flip and spin objects. I only flap my hands in private though. I do walk on my toes. I don't really care who sees me do these things although I did when I was younger. When I learned about autism, I really came out of my shell and stopped caring about being different. I realized I am not some freak of nature and that there are other people out there who are similar to me.
I love animals and SCIENCE. And of course, music. Some of my favorite singer/song writters are Jason Mraz, John Mayer, and Ben Harper. Some bands I like are OAR, Live, and NeedToBreathe.