Hi, took me a long time to work up the courage to post but here i am,
I'm really hoping some of you on here can help me out, sort of help me to confirm what i think,
i'm 19, i've had 'mental problems' for years, back and forwards from doctors and phsyciatrists who are no help at all. I always thought my anxiety was just that, anxiety and that my social awkwardness was just extreme shyness. I came across Aspergers when there was a programme about it on the T.V. and i noticed i was quite similar to the man they were talking to.
I have anxiety in the extreme, i get anxious if i'm going somewhere i haven't been before, to the point of complete meltdown sometimes, i get anxious when people are late and i'm waiting or if they turn up early/unannounced. I basically get anxious when something is not going to plan, and if everything is going to plan, i find something else to worry about. I am awkward with people i don't know/only know a little bit, to the point where i can't even look at them. I can't hold down a job because i physically cannot start a conversation with the other people, even if its something important, i don't know what stops me, i just can't, On the other hand i have been in a loving relationship with my partner for four years and i am completely comfortable with him, and i have one friend i have known since childhood whom i am very close to, other than that i don't really have any friends to speak of, and i'm not very close to my mother and never have been but now i feel too awkward around her new husband so now i don't see her hardly at all, she tries to cuddle me too, which i cannot abide. I'd really like it if i could get opinions on this, it would be very nice to finally know whats wrong with me.
17 Apr 2012, 8:15 am
