Thank you for the welcome.
I haven't been 10 in a long time, I just meant that once I got to talk to someone openly about what I was like when I was growing up, it became clear that at that age I was wrong about what was "normal" and what was not normal. Making up my fantasy world, walking down the street with my head down because I didn't want to see anybody who'd want to talk to me, repeating my own words back to myself over and over and staring at light bulbs for hours (there were people in them and they were wearing Victorian outfits for some reason) were apparently in the Not category. I didn't really care and I don't think I'd trade my childhood for any other, but finding websites like this has helped me understand myself a bit better.