I am only 16 years old. They call me Breezy. I come from a small town in East Texas. Sports is my life. I was diagnosed with epilepsy at 4 yrs. old. Since January of 2012 I was diagnosed with Asperger's/Autism I was hoping someone could help. I have been to doctors & more hospitals every yr. I pass out at least 2 a yr. seizures come to haunt me. Driving? I hope to be soon! As of right now I am unstable. In April of thIs yr. I was put in a mental hospital in Shreveport where I was looked at after being suicidal, depressed, stressed, anxious, & shy? I came out to be pretty happy with counselour there, it was scary, & I hated it. My family & friends care so much about me. <3 I never seem to be happy though. The main reason I was there for hearing & seeing things & overdosing. Voices tell to do things ,but I fight them a lot. The things they tell me to do are like urges like cutting or running away or etc. but I'm strong enough not to those I only did that one thing. People freak me out. I hate hugs & crowds unexpected. I've been single. I plan on being a physiologist or counselour when I grow up. I feel confused with my life. I feel different. I stand out from alotta people. I rap, dance, sing, read, & draw. Breezy has swag. (; I have a lotta friends. I change from happy to sad to mad to the next minute. I think I have ADHD & bipolar. The doc thinks I don't I think I do. I can be your enemy or friend one day depending on the situation. I react different. Sometimes I shake & stare in the corner. But that's the syndrome I guess...my facial expressions are weird. I have a lotta questions like what do I do? & how do I move on with all of this? I tend to make people very worried. I never cry about it because I can't I hold it all in. I run track, that is my Passion. <3 I get very tired & my sleeping is terrible. Nightmares are hard. School was stress I did not need. How am going to survive by myself? There's a lot to this. Will I make it 10 years from now?
06 Jun 2012, 12:59 pm
