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Hi.

I just had my world turned upside down a few days ago. I was hanging out with friends online, and one says "Ooh, an Asperger's quiz. Let's take it!" It was the one at rdos. We do. Most of my friends got neurotypical results, a couple got "you have NT and Aspie traits" and then I got 150 of 200, "You are very likely an Aspie". I was shocked. At the time, I didn't know what Asperger's was aside from "some kind of autism."

So, I thought the test was wrong, but I was curious now. I searched for other tests, and took them. They all said the same thing. So I started doing research online, and grabbed some ebooks from amazon. Reading the stories of other Aspie's lives was eerily similar to reading my own.

In a way, I was relieved. I now knew why I had always felt so different from everyone else, why my mother and I always fought, just why everything.

Then I told my wife / same sex partner. I was ecstatic at having found out what was wrong and that maybe now I could get help and improve. She didn't take it well. She closed down on me. She later said it was to keep from saying something unfortunate while she dealt with the torrent of emotions. She is processing and coming around, but I was unexpectedly alone during this huge world altering revelation. We just moved to a new state, so my existing network of friends, such as it was, was out of reach.

So that's where I am. Kind of cut off from any in person support. A couple of supportive friends online and a few confused ones. I've not told everyone, after my wife's unexpected reaction. I may not tell anyone else even after I get a diagnosis. I know at this point my self-diagnosis isn't professional, but the fit is so perfect and no other explanation has ever come close. I'm confident. But I'm also mostly alone in dealing with this revelation right now. It's been stressful.

Also, I'm 33, a woman, engineer, and writer.

If anyone has any advice, I'd love to hear it.

Also, if anyone can recommend a good psychiatrist or psychologist in the Seattle area for me to see for a diagnosis, that would be great as well.

Thanks,
Pixel

welcome to WP.

Welkome to WP

Mick

I say start reading and keep reading. That has helped me a lot. I felt I needed a formal diagnosis, as well. Not to mention some support therapy. Books I would recommend: Pretending to be Normal, Aspergirls, and Aspergers from the Inside Out. All the authors are adults who were diagnosed as adults.

Good luck and welcome!

Thanks all,
and thanks for the reading list Nymeria. I'll check them out.

Pixel

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

welcome to the forum hope that you feel alright and I hope that everything goes well for you here you have friends here.