Hello I guess all I'm really looking for is some friends and to help other aspies who are younger than me that are struggling. I haven't had any friends for about two years now and have just gotten a boyfriend for almost a year and am having some trouble with that. All I want to do is to stop my brain from being a static TV. Most of the time it's just static and when I'm on track or feel emotions the shows come on but other than that it's just a bunch of static thoughts. I just want to be a functioning TV and not a static one when it comes to the way I think. I guess that's how I'd describe myself that and I never stop talking about rats they are my special interest as of late.