Who am I.. thats a good question..

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Who am I.. well, I'm a 28 year old male from the central part of Illinois in the United States of America. I grew up in a stable home with both my parents. My parents have owned and run their own business sense I was real little and it has been moderately successful, putting me in the upper part of Middle Class most my life.

I always knew I was different then those around me. I didn't, and still don't, feel comfortable in strange surroundings or even in groups of people I know and am close to. Basic social interaction has always been a energy demanding and stressfull endevor for me and as a result I don't make friends very easyly and it is almost impossible to meet women. The very idea of approaching a stranger and just starting a conversation makes me light headed.

This is not to say I don't have friends. All my life I've had a friend or two and these relationships are always very deep and rewarding, but I apply this more to good luck and grace of god that these people have found me, cause I could never have started these relationships myself. On the flip side, I've also been used many times by those I thought cared for me, but were infact just pretending.

I've always wanted to know why I was different from other people and as a result have studied psychology and people in general all my life. As a result I have become very adept at acting functional. I can pretend to be any type of person, any personality, whatever it takes to fit into a situation. I can consiously read the emotions and intents of people based on their demenor, vocal inflections, and small-muscle movements in their faces. But, like I said, this is all requires consious effort and is built on a store house of research and study, and to me seems more like trying to interact with another species then it does being a part of the community or participating in social interaction.

It was only recently that I found out about aspergers on the wonderful show Boston Legal. I immediatly looked it up on the net and I must say I was nearly overwhelmed as I read through the symptoms. I've always been able to look at mental disorders and pick one or two symptoms that lined up with what I have, but none have ever matched up to the extent that Aspergers does. I must say that it is quite a relief just having a label to put on it.

Well, that is enough rambleing by me. I'm just hear to learn more about others and their by learn more about myself.

Welcome to WP!

can relate to a lot of things u said...

>>small-muscle movements in their faces

cool! never done that tho!...man how can u do that and not be sorta freaked out by it?

i tend to not even be able to look at ppl much....cos i almost don't want to know what they are upto

Hi!

Welcome to Wrongplanet!

You are just a person, like each and every one of us here.

I hope you enjoy posting!

Welcome to WP!

Tim