Hi,
My name is Joel and I'm 44. It’s good to have a site and forum where I can relate to people with the same condition. I was labeled a "Hyper-Active" kid by my mother and her research led her to one Dr. Feingold (feingold dot org) back in the 70s. Concluding that artificial flavors and colors where the bane of my erratic existence and they must be banished from my diet at once! All the while, it was difficult to interact with other kids at school and around the neighborhood.
I had a real problem picking up on the body language or telling when a kid was joking around or serious, so I was easy to mislead or trick making me quite gullible. When I was in my junior year of High School, I was doing well in English, Computers and History however, I was having a real bad time with Algebra and Biology.
In 1996, my mother decided that I needed to see the school psychologist. He ran some tests and concluded I had a LD (Learning Disability) and I was put in a special "Psychology of Life" IRC Group Discussion class for on of my periods. We would sit around and discuss or problems and issues, or not say anything, Kinda like a verbal therapy thing. I don't believe it did much good. With the proliferation of the internet, I started researching my "LD".
I personally concluded I had Non-Verbal LD at the time. I was never given any diagnosis paperwork from the school Psyche, I wrote him once for a record but received no reply. So having no proof, I kept it to myself and stayed working. I have always had social-interactive issues with peers and supervisors.
It's like an anxiety builds up with any mistakes I make that I somehow appear or behave different from others, making me stand out. It’s difficult to hide my emotions and facial expressions appearing to be mad or stressed out to others.. It's only recently that I have refined my self-diagnosis to High-Functioning Asperger. I have never run across someone on the "Street" with High-Functioning Asperger, not an easy thing to spot as you might imagine.
I have always wanted to get a formal diagnosis from a clinical/neuro psychologist or Autism specialist but my financial resources are limited. I am not sure what the cost of a typical diagnosis runs. And No, I'm not looking to jump on SSI "just because", I would like to avoid that if possible and have a rewarding career. However, If somehow my condition worsens, I wouldn't mind having certifiable proof and help if I need it.