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What is your first name? Dale

Age: 23

Location: Indianapolis

Hobbies and Interests: I like to write, tinker with computers, and on occasion I'll play games, but I do like talking to others.

Why are you here? I believe I have some signs of Autism and I'm hoping to investigate. Some friends say it's a possibility, and I've talked to three different psychiatrists, all saying the results are inconclusive. I only started investigating about three years ago, and even posted a question on here before, but this is the first time I've been back since, so I suppose I'm just trying to see if I may fit in here more than most places.

When were you diagnosed?(skip if you don't have a disorder): (Skipping)

Favorite subjects: I'm out of school, but anything involving computers has caught my eye. I also like spelling, and occasionally English.

Year/Grade: Out of high school/college

Favorite music: Trance, ambient, tracker, techno, environmental, dubstep, chiptune, and hardstyle. Of course, not in that order, and I'll listen to anything at least once.

Books: I prefer sci-fi, fantasy, and mysteries.

TV shows/Movies: Too many to list, though I do like House M.D. and Avatar.

Instrument: I used to play a Clarinet, but that was over a decade ago.

Do you like sports? Not really. I do walk around a lot though.

Family: A mother and two brothers. My mother is neurotypical, but my oldest brother has ADHD. My other brother has been diagnosed as having Autism, but it's unclear where he is on the spectrum. This is another reason why I believe I could have it on some level.

Clothing: Plain shirts, usually wearing jeans, and I have to have my boots.

How did you find this website? I found it a long time ago when I was trying to find out if I had any symptoms of Autism. I'm using the same account I did back then as well, but I hadn't posted anything since that time until now.

Job: Unemployed currently. I used to manage all the technology for my grandmother's asphalt company, but now it's closed and it's unlikely it will open up in the Spring.

Plans for the future? Unsure. I don't really plan much, as I've had bad experiences with making plans. They either don't go so well, or don't happen at all.

Any comments? I'm not sure what I'll gain from here, but I tend to be very empathic, and overly emotional. Due to this, I can be very paranoid and fearful if I don't know where I stand with someone, especially if I really care about that person. I try to not let it affect me, but it's not always easy. There are also some times where I don't really talk much to others, which leads to complications in having friends. In truth, I'm just so afraid of losing my friends that I don't want to say anything to cause them harm. I suppose that may be why I'm reaching out on here, because I fear losing a bunch of my close friends right now, so I'm trying to find a place that won't be full of pain. I hope that I don't scare or upset anyone...I can also be depressive sometimes, and I recognize this, but I'm not entirely sure how to correct this. I'll just try to keep my posting to a minimum, so that I don't bother others that much.

Welcome!

Welcome to WP!

I am also a fan of ambient music.

Hi there. I have almost the same issues as you do.

I've almost always been a loner during school. I have always had a fear of meeting new people (unless they talk to me first, but even then I feel awkward around new people). I just honestly don't know what to say, or what to talk about mainly because I don't really do much in my life (other than surfing the web and playing PC games all day, my response is usually "not much, same ole stuff". And I won't say much else. I mostly listen to people rather than talk, unless I haven't talked to that person about it, and I only talk about my problems with people I trust. Lately though I've met 2 people in the last 2 years that I can feel that I can honestly trust (with my life, etc). I've never really had a good relationship with either of my parents. My mother has bi-polar and I just don't want to talk to her. Mainly because she scared me as a child and her personality hasn't even really changed over the years. The only person in my immediate family that I get along with is my younger brother, even though I barely talk to him. Social is just hard for me (mostly out of fear of feeling as if I'm not a normal person). I have a really hard time expressing my feelings (you can read my introduction here if you want to understand me a little better).

For the past 12 years that I've been living in this town, I haven't really had very close friends that I could really be close to. Mainly due to that I didn't grow up here in this town, and the town I did grow up in was a poor community, and most of the people in my old county were for the most part, unhealthy, unhappy or people with really screwed up personalities. I generally seem to attract people that have weird personalities or just plain screwed up in the head (probably due to the fact that I don't talk much and I'm just a very passive person that doesn't stand up for myself all that much).