Hi, I'm new here, I think I might have aspergers but on the higher scale because I have gone undiagnosed for this long. I am 37 years old, not working and living with family. I have been in therapy now for 5 years, moved around a lot so I've had a few different therapists. My social anxiety keeps me at home and without friends, which is comfortable for me. I only interact with family, my therapist, and I attend a mindfulness group. I think I have AS because I've never "gotten" how communication works. It has always been a puzzle for me. I only speak when spoken to except I'm a little freeier with my intimate family that I live with,and it is even uncomfortable for me to make small talk. Looking at someone directly, to meet their gaze is extremely uncomfortable for me. I can't leave the house without my paranoid thinking tagging along, although I've gotten much better now that I am out of my 9 year bad relationship. I also do odd things like counting in my head especially when I was younger I would always have to take eight steps or multiples of eight to get to where I was going, now I just count the steps when I am extremely nervous. I must always do things in the same routine. If I don't get my morning cup of coffee, online/computer time, shower in without being rushed, then I am in a bad mood and feel out of sorts all day.
My best friend is Stella, she has beautiful golden red hair, a caring smile, and a great personality. Oh and she has four paws!! I love her to death. She is my true companion in this world. My 'therapy' dog of sorts just without the paperwork. I won't bore you with every detail as to why I think I have AS, just this 'label' seems to fit me more than most. When I'm having a good day, I go running, and I really enjoy woodworking, I've recently gotten my shop set up and have just finished glueing up my first box, something I haven't done in years. So if you feel like PM me or replying I'd enjoy to try out the company at least. Thanks for reading!