Bleeding Oneself and Decoding Ones Defenses!

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I have spent a lifetime being autistic in character and had many
safe places and defenses. the last 2 weeks I was informed by my
employer to review this topic(Autism and Aspergers). With all shields
up and bloodletting my innerself, I cracked my internal codes, and
safe havens to allow the bleeding of my inner self and reveal lost data.
Through thorough research of points of view, many safe cracking,
code breaking I can say this is a very good website and the anger within
subsided and as I stood tall(STAYING TRUE TO MYSELF...FOR I CAN BE
OWN WORST ENEMY).
I from a I-Physical sense see people without faces, but the spectrum
of ages that learn from others and their bloodletting to get there. Losing
their walls and defenses and being true to themselves, as I am to myself
is a constant ongoing process.
How did you other HFA/Asperger's folks get past this blood letting,
safe cracking, serious decoding to reach this faceless but poignant and
effect stage?

How did you other HFA/Asperger's folks get past this blood letting,
safe cracking, serious decoding to reach this faceless but poignant and
•effective stage?

I seem kind of confused here as to what exactly what the point is your trying to make.

Some clarification would be greatly appreciated.

Just stating how I communicate and expressing
my honest self. The goal of this tidbit is to
understand how each individual got to this
www.WrongPlanet.net step.

?

If it's not too pragmatic an answer, a link at some other website led me here.

Were there chain of events of logic that led to the links that led you
to wrongplanet.net?

hmmm not really. I've been in AS net groups for a few years but wearied of most of them and stopped participating much, so thought I'd try this 'new' one. That's the only chain of 'logic' to it.

I'm not sure if I understand you though, are you asking if I see special events leading me here? like there's a magical factor to it? then no, I don't.

I can understand what you are saying. For my part, I was searching all along for what in the heck was the matter with me. For a while, I thought it was due to the MBTI personality types...because INTP's (as I am) are rare and sort of geeky. Time on the INTP list made me realize, after a while, that while I am an INTP, most of them did not have the issues that I struggle with, as severely as I do. I met a friend there, and she turned ot to have Asperger's...we corrresponded and she asked if I thoguth I might have it...I said..maybe (shrug).

It wasn't until I worked in a place with "therapy" for disabled people that I met a HFA girl who I got along with really well. We understood each other and were weird in the same ways...This was scary to consider...but eventually I began to conclude that I might be autistic also. I felt very...ashamed or secretive about it because I was workign in that agency!

[.because INTP's (as I am) are rare and sort of geeky]

I never heard of INTP and how does it, or where does
it relate to the reflective essay?

I say thank you for introducing a new word for me.

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

Describe, if you can, the HFA girl. You made her sound inspiring
and intriguing.

Inspiring and intriguing are good words to describe her. She is very creative...and she tries to reach out in her own way, but the normals coudln't understand her way of communication. They heard her <b>words</b> but they just didn't <b>get it</b>. She loves to shock them and get a reaction out of them by saying things that she *knows* will irritate them. I almost think she does it to test them to find out what sort of a person they are. She is very verbal, but communication in the "normal" (boring) sense is hard for her. I suspect that as for me, it's uninterestiing and in her case, not worth the time or effort. I can't blame her...

I think what got to me was the sudden realization that I was lookign at siomeone who acted a LOT like me, only somewhat exaggerated. I <b>did not realize</b> how umm.... odd...I looked...until I spent time with her. See, I knew that I walked with my head down and that I tended to go from point A to point B, being very goal oriented, and that I would stop suddenly if something caught my interest...but I had never seen soemone else walk that way until I met her. I knew that I had a tendency to look <i>through</i> people rather than <i>at</i> them, and to zone out and then suddely snap out of it, to blurt out strange questions or comments out of the blue, but you really cannot appreciate this stuff until you see it in someone else.

She is more flamboyant, more outrageous, and cares even less about what people think than I do, but it became very apparent in a very short time that we had been cut out of the same cloth. And I honetsly don't think I would ever have solved the mystery of myself without havign met her, or soemone like her.

You and I are alike. We see honesty as the answer to ourselves.
I may be wrong, or right, but I am following my instinct on this.

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter