I Think I Might Be Aspie..

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Hi everyone waves kind of awkwardly

I wouldn’t think I would be spilling my guts out to an internet forum, but I am at a loss for words as to what I have been going through and honestly none of the support structures I have utilized have been of any help as of yet. So I am not going to be dump my whole life story but I hope that in a few hundred words I can chronicle what I have experienced and maybe some of you fine folks can help me relate and/or fill in some of the gaps.

I guess some background, I’m a 26 year old female (Trans* with existing diagnoses of “Specific Learning Disability – Visual Spatial and Cognitive Proccessing” and Gender Identity Disorder.) I’ve had some of these “sign” / “quirks” for my entire life and others are newerer… I’m just going to list a few bullets of what I have been experiencing

Social Exhaustion – I hit a “threshold” when dealing with people, even close friends. If I have more than two friends in the room after a few hours I “pull inwards” and cut off some communication and emotional expression or interest in group topics.

Constant Use of Headphones – I don’t see this as a problem, but I use an iphone almost four hours a day, especially when in public, to create a barrier between myself and the outside world. I don’t want to be totally isolated from it but it takes the edge off and gives me some sembleness of control.

Noise Senesitivity – Sometimes I am sensitive to certain pitches and loudness levels, a dog barking will send me covering my ears but a telephone will not. Loud music in a club will send me over the edge but constantly playing my own won’t. More than one person talking really messes me up, I loose track and when in a lecture hall if the whole class is talking at once it sends me into a complete breakdown…

Breakdown State .. speaking of these, these are the freaking worst. Sometimes they are random, I got a below average grade on an exam (usually a 70s student) and it sent me careening into shakes and crying. Other time it’s almost like I have a “stamina bar” and once that reaches zero I am done, if it gets depleted below zero I break down. God these are terrifying…

So in conclusion to my as of this sentence 411 word chronicle, this is what I have been experiencing. Not every day perse but since I did a project on Asperger's for psychology class (Psych is my major) I’ve been a little bit more sensitive about the whole issue, although these things have cropped up for at least the last 18 years. No formal diagnsosis and no help as of current. All I can do is be on edge, watch for the internal signs that some of these are happening and try to cope

Thanks <3

Michelle

hiya Michelle welcome to the club

Hi labby - What are the benefits of this club? Where do I pick up my registration card LMAO

it's all wireless/virtual, you get the picture
the bennies are that you now belong to the brotherhood/sisterhood of aspies

Oh well I am okay with that, I am constantly connected *looks at phone* so it's good that it is virtual

Honestly, I've stayed away from labels so hard, even typing the word "aspie" about myself is kinda difficult. I mean ergh :p

I like aspie the term, it sounds friendly and squishy/cuddly, as that reflects what I am about.

Welcome! I never thought I'd be telling everyone my story on any kind of forum, either, but here we are...

Honestly it's just nice to get my feels out in written word and have someone understand it <3

Also squishy is nice.. like a plushie ^^

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