はじめまして!
I've had depression, too. You'll find a lot of people on this site who have had to deal with mental health issues at some point in their lives ... and we all deal with it in different ways. There's a section of this site called The Haven that deals a lot with mental health issues. It can get fairly intense sometimes, but you might be able to get insights from some of the threads there.
More generally, I hope you can find people on this site that you can relate to.
Welcome again.
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It is easy to go down into Hell;
Night and day, the gates of dark Death stand wide;
But to climb back again, to retrace one's steps to the upper air –
There's the rub, the task.
– Virgil, The Aeneid (Book VI)