Velocityraptor

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Joined: 10 Feb 2014
Age: 49
Gender: Female
Posts: 17

12 Feb 2014, 9:14 pm

I have only just recently come to suspect that I may be autistic, a discovery that I made purely by chance. I poking around Netflix and decided to watch Ted Talks: Head Games. Temple Grandin spoke in one episode. At the beginning, I was only half listening. By the end, my eyes were pretty much bugging out of my head, because she seemed to be talking about me.

At this point, I've read enough to be satisfied that I fit somewhere on the Spectrum, although it's still unclear to me how AS differs from simply being Autistic. My AQ Test score was 32. Just accepting that much as being true is overwhelming.

About myself: I write Sci-Fi/Urban Fantasy: amateur with hopes to become professional. I enjoy photography and graphic design. Psychology has always interested me, especially as it relates to human motivation. I feel compelled to delve beneath the surface of things, which is partly what draws me to explore the mystical side of life.

I have spent quite a bit of energy studying psychological astrology, partly because it is so inexplicably accurate but also because the need to blend archetypes to extract coherent meaning forces my linear brain out of its comfort zone into the nebulous realms of abstraction. It teaches me a new way to think, which has had a positive effect on my ability to express my creativity.

I'm currently employed as a cashier at Walmart... something else I chose to do because it forces me out of my comfort zone. Given my druthers I'd find work that allowed me to sit at home in front of my computer all day--like writing. Ahem. :roll: . I admit I can go weeks without ever feeling the urge to get outside. Working at Walmart is exhausting, but I find it has increased my tolerance to a point where social anxiety is no longer a daily issue for me because it has become so routine. I still get anxious going into new social situations, but my confidence in my ability to handle them has increased. I have a higher tolerance for noise since working there, as well. I hardly even notice the screaming children anymore. I just hope none of them are actually being kidnapped, because I don't think I'd notice that either. :lol: