Hi
As far as I know I am neurotypical but am diagnosed with Severe Social Anxiety (am on disability because I am presently unable to cope with the social aspects of working), Depression, Anxiety, past history of OCD and Agoraphobia (I can't stand crowded places). Someone recommended this site to me and I thought I'd drop by and take a look.
I have had problems with socialising since childhood. I was basically a socially awkward child who could never get socialising quite right, especially amongst my own peers (as I was quick to pick up language at a young age, I could however walk up to an adult and start a conversation on a subject of interest with very few problems). I wanted to socialise but also tended to be happy playing on my own for hours at a time but my teachers etc thought this was abnormal and so would encourage me mix with the other children, which often did not go well and would usually result in either my being ridiculed by them or told off by the teachers for doing something wrong! As a result I started to become socially anxious and my social anxiety has stayed with me through out my life and so have my problems with socialising.
I also have issues with relationships due to the fact that I tend to be a bit OCD in that I don't adapt wel to change, particularly if its sudden, and need to have routines in order to function. I tend to get fairly upset when my routines are disrupted and many partners don't understand this, especially as some of my routines are a little odd (ie I always have the same food menu on a Saturday). Again I was the same as a child (Ie, I'd always watch scooby doo at the same time every day and would get unusually upset if it was not on for some reason or I couldn't watch it...disproportionately so compared to other people so in my mums words "cue a mega tantrum from hell", although I have mellowed a bit as I have gotten older) and very few people understand why I get so distressed over such odd things lol.
They also don't understand my intense interests and how, for example, I could spend up to 12 hours a day doing them. I am usually accused of being down right obsessed with them, although I prefer to think of myself as passionate. My interests can change every few years or so, but I usually spend that time being fixated on one thing...ie jigsaw puzzles or cross stitching and when I was a child museums! I also drive people mad because when I am not engaged in my hobby, I am talking about it...constantly! I have been told many times to "shut so people can get a word in edgewise" or "To shut up because they are not interested" and my personal favourite "Excuse me, if you don't mind me interrupting your monologue..."
Ahem.
I may be neurotypical but I can tell you there are times I don't really feel it lol. I seem to be a walking oddity in a world of my own most times. In fact I was no stranger to the sayings "she is in a world of her own", "The lights are on but no one is home" and "She is away with the fairies again" etc when I was growing up and even in my adult life at times.
Anyway I just thought I would introduce myself and say hi!
Hi