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Hi,

I am self diagnosed with Aspergers. i just wanted to say hi to break the ice. I am a woman in my forties and since I was 5 and started school, have been obsessed with finding out why I have always been so different from others, as well as treated so differently from other people. This is the first thing that actually makes sense out of all the things I have researched - all the personality disorders, psychiatric problems, etc etc. Everything fell into place and it was not what I expected at all. In fact all the wierdness of my family now makes complete sense. My family growing up were mainly women - all of us very intellectual, highly intelligent, yet very overwhelmed by people and social life. Among the various problems we have variously encountered are bullying through school, eating disorders, problems with drugs and alcohol, a multitude of diagnosed personality disorders. The more I read, the more everything makes sense. I have decided to bring the information I have found to my GP.

Things I am interested in are mathematics, physics, playing and learning instruments. Things which I've never been able to tolerate are flourescent lights, most materials that aren't cotton, tight clothes, touching anything metal, too many conversations at once, static in my hair. My main frustrations in my life are that i always feel like I'm putting on an act just to be able to fit in, and not being able to talk at all in many situations. People always think I'm shy but i don't feel I am. i have so much in my head but I just can't get it out. Sometimes I feel like I want to burst with all the various things in my head wanting to come out. But I end up staying quiet and pretending I'm ok. I never know what, out of all the possibilities in my head, is the right thing to say. It makes me feel crazy just thinking about it and generally need to get on my own for a long time to calm down.

Thanks I look forward to talking to people on here and hopefully getting some support with things and maybe being able to help others with stuff too.

Hello terrymac!

I also went through something similar, knew I was different but didn't know why, and at first I looked for information about ASD because of a loved one ... and then realised that myself I had many traits of Aspergers (turns out I am more Aspie than NT). But anyway, it was such a relief to discover all of this.

And welcome to WrongPlanet, in my opinion it is the best website ever for Aspergers and Autism in general.

hi, i've played piano, violin, tuba, and rhythm guitar. these days i mostly just sing. nice to meet you.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Hello, welcome!