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I'm 40 y/o man from Central Europe. I have suspicion about having AS. Both from observed behavior as well as from scoring high on AS tests. However situation is a bit complicated because of serious childhood trauma which alone can have many symptoms similar to AS symptoms. But reading texts about AS persons profile I find myself to fit in the same picture. I do not know if there are professionals in the area who can diagnose AS.
Facts that confuses me a lot is that I'm able to very accurately find out what people I deal with. Many times "foretelling" ones actions and intentions as well. Know nearly exactly when somebody is lying or not. I's not intuition just pattern seen on faces, postures, voice tone, etc. This seems does not fit into AS symptoms.
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Robert

hi, robert, what sorts of things do you enjoy doing? welcome.

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cathylynn, AnonymousAnonymous thanks,

"what sorts of things do you enjoy doing?"

Tricky question. There is nothing specific about my interests. Except that I have to learn something always. So I can be interested in nearly anything. Interests lasts typically about half year. In that time I collect information's about topic from all available sources, trying to get to principles, etc. It can be as simple as outdoor cookware, or scientific topics like astronomy, biology, painting, etc. I do not need to practice in the area, I feel satisfaction to get the theory behind. Practice does not make much sense to me. Then if I gather enough information's about topic, interests falls down and next topic is found soon. This goes in cycles.
This kind of behavior makes a bit trouble ti me. I'm software developer and in the time I'm learning something my work suffers. I'm able to work but it takes quite a bit of effort to concentrate and not to fly away every time. If I cannot do research job I'm very inefficient. Visualization of barrier not letting interesting topics to my head helps me here. This is struggle for me because of my family as well. I'm well aware that I need to work to provide good living condition. Without them I would probably not force myself to concentrate on work so much.
So If I could characterize myself in this sense I would say I'm information gatherer.
But int the last year or two, I feel very exhausted. Maybe midlife crisis? I try to stop my thinking about new thinks and just to push away new interests. I find joy in calming activities mostly manual stuff like gardening, painting or working with wood. Anything that takes my head away from thinking. To understand better my paintings are mostly moving around with brush or pencil. I'm bit afraid of it, probably because up until now I have concentrated on info's and theory and painting, gardening and woodworking are practical not theoretical activities. I have to put lot of effort to protect myself from buying books on paintings, gardening or searching about those topics on internet and concentrate solely on actual activity.

Robert