I feel normal but different

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Joined: 5 Aug 2015
Age: 36
Posts: 2

05 Aug 2015, 5:37 am

Hi everybody.

Since I was a teenager, I started to feel very different from everybody else.

I tried to blend in, I had acquaintances, but only one friend. He is my best friend. He is so similar to me, and I feel like we have become more similar over time.

I can talk to people I trust, but I hide my real traits because most people think I am "weird"

I obsess over things, I resarch them.

I feel scared of being looked at and hide in my car when I go out in public.

I am obsessed with maps and I am obsessed with where places are and being able to see them from far away. I also obsess over aeroplanes and where they are flying.

Bright lights, heat, and loud noses disturb me.

Sport makes me bored. I cant watch it, I cant play it, I cant listen to people talking about it.

I feel like I have social anxiety, but at the same time I can talk to people I trust.

I fear most other humans, because in the past they look at me strangely, laugh at me, talk about me, straight up tell me I am WEIRD, or avoid me.

I just want to feel like I am normal and that there are other people like me.

I am happy when I am alone, and my interests and rituals make me feel comfortable.

I feel like there is nothing wrong with me and everybody else is WEIRD.

Help! ? :oops: