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Hey Guys,

I'm new here, and I've been lurking a bit for a week or so and finally decided to join up. Figured it might be good. I'm not really sure what to say other than to write a bit of a backstory.

I'm coming right up on 31 years of age here in a couple weeks, and I've always wondered what the heck was wrong with me, especially as of lately (within the last few years or so). I've always been told I was odd, weird, different, 'special', etc, never liked hanging out with people except for a couple very close friends, never had many girlfriends of relationships, etc. Just basically struggling to find myself in life. For the longest time, I've been quite fascinated with personality development in other individuals, which of course, stemmed over to myself. Looking it up and reading about the different types, taking tests, etc I came to the conclusion that I am an INTJ. For the better part of 2 years, I figured I was the way I was simply because that's my personality. I never thought there to be anything more beyond that. However, that never answered the questions in my mind. I never felt like I belonged here in this world, felt strange, out of place, etc. Well, a few weeks ago, I was searching around for random generic terms relating to feeling like one doesn't belong to this world/planet, and low and behind, what comes up but Wrong Planet. This was the first time I'd heard of Asperger's before. My mother and sister are both teachers, dealing specifically with gifted children, so I figured they would know of this being that is what their careers are about. You can imagine my utter shock and surprise when I expressed to them that I believed I had this only to find out that my sister had diagnosed me with this about 10 years ago or more, and had tried to tell my parents they should tell me, however they told her that they too knew since I was much much younger, but to not let me know because they were afraid of how I'd take it. I've been known to be quite hard on myself, so, I get it. On the other side of the coin however, I've spent the majority of my life thinking something was seriously wrong with my head, maybe I had some neurological condition that was worsening, maybe I'd messed myself up from too many chemicals and substances in my youth, etc. These thoughts just ate and ate and ate at me until I discovered WP and Aspergers.

Suddenly, it was like a switch went off. Wow! This is me, this describes me exactly! Even better yet, the more I read of the inner monolog of other individuals with this disorder, the more it was like they were writing my actual thoughts, very intimate thoughts that I've never discussed with anyone on how and why I perceive things, etc. Quite interesting. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm relieved to realize that there are others out there like myself and I'm quite excited to be here!

While it's nice and it clears up a lot of questions I have, it doesn't solve all the problems as I'm sure everyone here understands too. I'm not ashamed or upset, I am who I am and it's not without it's perks and benefits. To me, the benefits certainly outweigh the cons, but it would be nice to find a compatible mate at some point in my life. But, in either case, until that happens, I'll simply continue expressing myself the best way I know how, by creating music which I love and borderline obsessed with .

So, yeah. I'm not really sure what else to write here, but I wanted to at least join up and introduce myself. I've recently moved to a new house here a few days ago and am trying to cope with the stress of change and moving, something I don't handle very well, but I'm really liking it. Other than that, I'm not sure what else to say beyond I write software and work on server stuff for a living, and I use Ableton to write and mix electronic music. I've played drums for about 20 years now, and recently just taken off on piano, hoping to expand this to learning guitar here soon too.

Pleasure to meet you all, and I apologize for writing a lengthy post

Hey jl7711 welcome.

Hello again! nice to meet you
Sounds a little bit like my family, actually... my brother has ASD (was diagnosed with Asperger's at around age 5) and when I told him and my mother, I expected them to be surprised, or deny my diagnosis... but they both just went "well yeah that explains a lot". Families, gah!!

INTJ is that personality type quiz, isn't it? Intuitive, something, something, judging?

i have a good psychologist friend who happens to be an INTJ. i'm INFJ. what sorts of things do you like to do?

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome

Thanks for the warm welcome guys

Haha, pretty close! Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging




Very interesting to hear you're an INFJ. I know I could use a little help on the Feeling side of things some days haha. As far as what I enjoy doing, that's an easy one for me. I'm kinda obsessed with making music - I spend the majority of my free time writing, mixing, or just trying to improve at it, be it sound design/synthesis, mixing/mastering, or just basic melodic structuring. I'm fascinated with it and can't seem to get enough. It's not a career yet, although that's a dream. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing haha. I play drums and piano often, and also draw sometimes. During the warmer months I mess around with glass. A couple good friends of mine blow glass for a living, so I've gotten okay at screwing around with that stuff sometimes. Very fun to do. Mmm, yeah. Otherwise, I like writing software and building databases, but I do so much of it at work, that it's almost not enjoyable anymore. I used to be huge into cars, modifying engines, specifically tuning turbocharged engines that are fuel injected. I enjoy an occasional video game from time to time, but it's something that I feel I could be finding more constructive things to do with my time, so I don't do that too often any more.


How about yourself? What do you enjoy?