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I was born as an outgoing person, but at age 2 I became an introvert. It's hard for me to talk to people without locking up unless I've been around that person a lot. I now have a slight OCD, but instead of making everything tidy, I like to make sure that something is out of order. For example, I might tilt a painting on the wall if it's too straight. I should also mention that I have an overactive imagination and I daydream often. When school gets too boring, I have to spice things up by playing a prank. Nobody suspects me because I am an introvert (or am I just shy?).whenever a play a prank like this, my anxiety goes through the roof, but I remain calm. This anxiety is very stimulating because it breaks boredom. Most of the time I make people at school laugh because of the funny prank outcomes, so I am glad that I am spicing up life for them too. Sometimes I cause grief for others, but I care not since I am glad to create chaos. Disasters happen, learn to clean up after them for burrito's sake! That's life! I should also mention that I Am hateful a little too much and am slightly sadistic, but who isn't these days? I can't stand it when people at school or family members talk about college and the usual cliché things because it drives me insane! What a boring lifestyle that is to me! I actually recognize chaos as more than just a word. I know that it is a force of nature that keeps life from getting too boring. I also enjoy the science behind it like chaos theory and entropy. I am not religious, I am agnostic. I learned not to fear labels from people because I hate being like the majority of the population. I want to be more bombastic and social so I can be more chaotic . Being social is hard for me . I should also mention that I despise sexual relationships and I prefer to be asexual as I find nobody attractive to the slightest degree. Love is a dumb thing that is dwarfed by chaos. Maybe I can become more social if I get a girlfriend? I'd hate to abandon my views toward that lovey dovey stuff, but anything is worth trying to get over my social problems. I have a high self esteem, so my esteem isn't the problem here. So where do I fit in within this colorful spectrum if at all, and how can I fix my shyness?

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Hi there iam Ryan but people just call me rai
Hmm you sound like my friend Kai in some respects especially the chaos thing he has ADHD (Attention Deafahsit Disorder "probably misspelt") which is part of the umbrella condition known as ASD(Autistic Spectrum Disorder) I am a high Fuctioning ASD my self what that means 4 me refers to the other two conditions incorporated in ASD Aspergers (which I an high functioning in I think) and Autisum (which I am low Fuctioning in I think). Now you r thinking to your self what is ASD well the short answer is 2 pages long so il give you the basics ASD affects the persons behaviour in a verity of ways for ADHD the person is in a hyper active state nearly 24/7you know bouncing off the walls impusivly doing stuff etc. Mow with aspergics or just Aspie's things are a little more complicated now if I am not mixing them up Aspie's well are a rather odd bunch and that's coming from one we are very organised, adore order, are quite shy at time and some times not very social but both people with Aspergers and autism have ,one common thing intelligence a ton of it. Now don't know much about autism but I know where you can look try of mice and men the lead characters George and Lenny I think are based on people with Aspergers and autism respectively and a book called "freaks geeks and Aspergers".
Really hoped this helped pm me if you have any questions il help as best I can.
Rai

introvert vs. extrovert is easy to grok. extroverts get energy from socializing. introverts recharge by being alone.