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After having a very difficult time over the last year or so I decided to start trying to really understand what is behind the train wreck that is my life. This is what I know:

“When I could not sit still in class, I was disruptive. When I didn’t connect with my peers, I was aloof. When I misinterpreted situations, I was inconsiderate. When I did not notice you walk in the room, I was self-absorbed. When you told me I shook the soda and I responded, “No, I dropped it,” you beat me. When I asserted myself, I was inappropriate. When my children’s chattering made my skin crawl, I was a horrible father. When I had to extract myself from a situation at work so I could pace, rock or shake my legs and regroup, I was obstinate and non-negotiable. When I lost my job, I was lazy and irresponsible. When I couldn’t understand, I was stupid. When I was overwhelmed by the world or blinded by bright lighting, I was too sensitive. When I stayed in my lab for days, I was a recluse. When I was tired and frightened, I was socially unacceptable. When I finally realized there was something different about me, I was making excuses. When I came to you for help, you acted as if I were trying to steal your gold watch.”

PLEASE………………….for the love of all things good, please help me make it stop!

I am David and think I may be an Aspie, if we can call it that still.

Cheers!!

now you're an emu egg! don't give up. i just wanted to say i can relate to your post. you made me smile. maybe you can schedule an evaluation with a psychologist, to determine if you have autism. i'm around your age, and i just did this very recently. it's nice to have an answer, even though i'm struggling a little bit with the diagnosis of autism.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Well Thanks for having me aboard. I have been to my initial interview and the psychologist has specialized in autism. I did tell her that I was not specifically looking for a diagnosis, but if that is the end result, then so be it. I am actually VERY relived to have come upon this epiphany at all. It is truly inspiring to know that I am amongst many, and not one against the world. Because to this point, as all of you must know, it has been an ugly experience. I now can work on a deeper understanding and start to shape a new life from the ruins. I was fortunate that I was BARLEY capable of completing one career so as to be receiving a retirement check, but moving forward is going to be so much easier now that I have an modicum of understanding and experience.

One can imagine what all of my friends and family would say under their breath when I just had to show them that I built an instrument that could flush out nano volts. I am what might be affectionately referred to as a Volt-Nut. I just assumed everyone else had a passion too. Everyone else simply looks at me, furrows their brow, tilts their head and nods. Boy................how could I have misinterpreted those looks is beyond me.

LOL, Good times!! !

Welcome to WrongPlanet, Bosco.

Hey David welcome.

Welcome, though I'm no expert, it sounds to me like you could be in the right place.

Last night I went to a local Aspie group. It was amazing!! ! I had never been in a room so full of strangers, yet felt more at ease in my entire life.

YAY!! !! ! There are others like me.............I think. I ALWAYS felt so alone, even amongst family.

It is all starting to make sooooooooooo much more sense now.

How FREAGIN fabulous is this!! !! !

d

Hello David, welcome to Wrong Planet!

After years of banging your head against the brick wall of NT insensitivity, it sounds like you came to the right place. You'll meet many people here to whom you'll be able to instantly relate. I've lived with that sensation of being alone in a crowd all my life, but whenever I'm with Aspergians (or neurodiverse people in general), I feel exactly the same as you - I'm with my own kind.

I hope you enjoy yourself here.

Welcome to WP!

Thank you all so much. It is nice to find I am no longer stuck without like minded peeps!! !!

YAY!! !!

Off to school to prep for finals. I am a full-time student since my retirement and studying Electronics Eng.

Cheers,

d