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Hi, I'm new here. I'm currently undiagnosed (theres more information on this in my Bio if you are interested). I am 30 and collecting information from where I can that may be relevant and also making notes of my childhood (I didn't particularly stand out, I didn't particularly fit in) has anyone done this before and is keeping some kind of document or diary helpful?

I get anxiety about having any kind of focus on me from the outside world about my psychology, my thoughts and my decisions. A few times whilst I have been setting up this account and writing this someone has been walking back and forth behind me, asking me 'what are you looking it?', it's these actions and similar actions where frustration can really impact how I operate for the rest of the day. Normally if I ever express frustration at things like this or similar I get told to 'chill out' or similar, or the subject gets diverted as I insist on explaining. In this instance I suppressed it.

Since being recommended for a diagnosis I am reviewing my whole life from a different perspective, I don't think there will ever be an absence of questions and uncertainty.

Welcome to Wrong Planet - the home for all who live in anxiety. Hope you can be yourself, get some good information, and just have a few ears to listen to you or give advice.

Who is checking up on what you are doing on a computer? A boss, a friend or family member?

Do you think you have aspergers? Just remember that Aspergers or Autism are on a spectrum. My psychologist told me that I was far on the spectrum in some aspects but close to normal on others. It does not really matter. If you have concerns or struggles that fit the pattern of Aspergers or Autism, even if your diagnosis or background does not perfectly match, people here can probably help you.

Hope you enjoy your time here.

Thanks.
I initially got told by three people to check for spectrum disorders.

An ex who I am fine with socially and think may understand a certain degree about AS and has a lot of tolerance, ultimately she ended up feeling alone in my company which I get, I focus on work more than people.

A careers advisor who the company I work for bought in to talk to me because I was clashing with everyone after I got made a manager. I drew a diagram for her about how things should work and how it seems so obvious and she asked me about my psychology, after my initial annoyance at the proposal I started looking into it.

Then a GP who referred me to local Mental Health authorities had me talk to a therapist and she recommended full testing for Asperger's syndrome and spectrum disorder.

The person checking is my current partner, who may or may not understand but approaching me from behind whilst I'm doing something I'm immersed in completing makes me uncomfortable, regardless of who/why.

So it's trying to make sense of these proposals from external individuals, I found myself in a place where I believed I was right about everything, it was everyone else that had issues of tolerance or thought. I like the fact that I'm blaming other people less now and being a bit more thoughtful about what's what.

Are you still a manager?

I have been a manager for about 8 years or more and I am in the process of stepping down because it is just way too stressful for me to manage other people.

Best of luck on your diagnosis. I hope that WP is able to help you and I hope to see you around.

I moved out of the city where my office is but the wanted to keep me on so they made me manage the creatives like graphic designers and artists who work all out of office themselves which I feel much more comfortable with. Working from home has been much better.

I can relate to direct management being stressful, it got way too much for me.

Welcome to WP, B.NoSo!

Hey B.NoSo welcome.