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Hi there,

Funny story, I just realized that I've been lurking here for over a DECADE! Now you would think that that kind of accomplishment deserves some kind of reward right?

No? OK, well apparently my subconscious disagrees. At least, that's why I think that I suddenly felt compelled to start commenting yesterday, and true to my real world reputation of being the super quiet person who suddenly doesn't shut up when you get me to start talking, I've now posted 800% more times in the last 10 hours or so than I had in the prior 10 years!

Since if history is any indicator, I'm probably going to be all over the site for the next day or so before I slink off to my corner to lurk some more, I figured that I might as well introduce myself.

Hi! I'm Zsinix

I'm originally from San Francisco East Bay California (USA). I moved to the Kansas a little over a year ago, and man do a I wish that I had a pair of red slippers about now!

I was diagnosed when I was a young teen. I say "diagnosed", but really I was handed a Xeroxed page out of the DSM and told that I had "light autism"... I "knew" what autism was and I knew that there was no way that I was "autistic". Also, basically my psychologist really didn't know anything more than that she'd described my to a colleague who gave her the page, she read it and handed it to me. After that she just stopped even bothering to talk about my social phobia, OCD like tendencies, or sensitivity to touch and distinct noises

Anywho, fast forward half a decade and my chem lab partner was telling me about her son being recently diagnosed with Aspergers and basically the pain in the 3 that he was at school. It rang a dusty bell in the back of my brain and finally drove me to start looking into my diagnosis.

Well, I know that many of you know what came next That's right! I found out that all those things that made me unique, special and quirky, you know, the things that made me, well, Me, well... Those were not me at all! No sir-y, all my "personality" traits were actually just my symptoms (I know that's supposed to be a turtle, but it's the closest resemblance to how I felt...)

Since I found out that I am not, in fact, who I thought I was, but instead just a value on the autistic spectrum (especially now that some people are even arguing that Aspergers isn't really a thing, just a prettier name for a region of the spectrum), I've tried to keep in the loop on what's what in the world of Aspergerdom. MeetUps, FB groups, WP, IRC, and all that fun jazz.

Well, that is until I ended up half-way across the country after getting scammed by a coding bootcamp (long story). Any way, it's probably the whole being cut off from real interaction with my Aspy peeps that has finally driven me to the desperate action of introducing myself. I mean let's be real, how many times in your life have you looked forward to introducing yourself to a swarm of total strangers? Hi!

Oh yeah, apologizing now for the verbosity and essays. Aspies and all that

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

"I am not, in fact, who I thought I was, but instead just a value on the autistic spectrum "

That's how I feel after just finding out the other day.

Totally devastated

Does this quote describe you?

"I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve."

I heard you're doing chemistry. Well, you're not alone; what specific field are you in? I'm organic.

Welcome to this site from a Canadian chemist.