Hi folks, this is my first post here. I'm in my late 30s, and after reading that Scientific American article about a year ago, on "Autism - It's Different in Girls," happened to click on it and have spent the past year going back and forth about finding things to identify with in that - and eventually, obsessively, numerous other articles about undiagnosed autism/aspergers in women who grew up being told they were shy, quiet, anxious, should come out of the shell, etc. Was told, you're just anxious/depressed/over-thinking; your eye contact, mannerisms, etc, are too good.
Despite all that, I kept reading, kept thinking, if this is true, then it will explain the three main themes of my life - anxiety, being quiet/shy, and having passionate, obsessive special interests - and I'd never thought to put all of those under one umbrella before.
I finally went to a specialist this past week who listened to me, who - although he wasn't able to say anything any one way or another - took my concerns and questions seriously. So I did the diagnostic interview and several hours of tests and now I wait two weeks for the results.
I'm half scared he'll say I'm on the spectrum, or have ADHD, and half-scared he won't. If he does say that I actually do have a neurodevelopmental diagnosis, I'm sort of imagining it'll be like a paradigm shift, in the sense of a new theory emerging after the old theories no longer fit the evidence.
But first, more waiting, wondering, and yes, worrying. Wish me luck!