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17 Mar 2018, 5:32 pm

Well then. I suppose one can peek at my profile and pick up the gifted kid part.
Anyways, I'm not sure if I'm an Aspie, this is my late uncle's assessment, but everything fits to a tee. No matter how much intelligence, willpower and rationalization skills I can use to expose my needs and wishes to other people, I know I'm wasting time, and none of those things keep me from just wanting my peace. Sure, I love my wife, and my kid, and the life I have (the latter to a certain extent) if I do the rationalizing thing.
But most of the time, I just wanna be alone. I used to think that it was due to certain past diagnoses, but nah. Things are just overwhelming regardless of the factual/rational/logical reasoning behind it. Mostly because that is done to appease others, which I feel no real need to, it's just good manners to me. I'm an actually nice person, and supposedly I'm very kind and altruistic or whatever rubbish one would deem me as such, but I can't really stay/interact with actual people (neurotypicals, is that the proper word?) for too long. They feel boring, fickle and they actively anger me. I know it's not them. I don't like validation also, and it seems that's how people do, when not being just annoying. That's actually insulting.

Oh yeah, I can play saxophone, guitar, harmonica, bass guitar, sing (my best instrument is my voice but I don't wanna be in a band nor have any commercial exposure that requires me being present near people) speak English decently I guess (I'm from Brazil), and my four interests are music, literature, psychology and topics that concern history of religion and philosophy of religion. I don't feel like going through my life history again; I believe it will come out naturally in bits and pieces, later on.

Pardon the bad English and/or typos.



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17 Mar 2018, 6:00 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet! :)


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19 Mar 2018, 2:53 am

Welcome, your english is very good.

Some NT's only have the appearance of being fickle - it's a way to ease into closer relationships.
People don't reveal too much intitially, they just find some common ground and take it very slowly from there - it's a trait that ASD's need to learn. Though it's not always the way, but try to not rush things, intensity can scare people off.



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19 Mar 2018, 4:09 am

AngryAngryAngry wrote:
Welcome, your english is very good.

Some NT's only have the appearance of being fickle - it's a way to ease into closer relationships.
People don't reveal too much intitially, they just find some common ground and take it very slowly from there - it's a trait that ASD's need to learn. Though it's not always the way, but try to not rush things, intensity can scare people off.


Firstly, thanks to both of you for the welcome.

And yes, I do understand that this is a neurotypical trait - and often I'm told that I'm exposing myself too much. Knowing that C-PTSD is something that exists in my existing "package of comorbid diagnoses" (alongside ADHD and OCD, although I always do take them with a grain of salt given the circumstances on which they were given and the disastrous outcome of the medication that was prescribed, both at my behest - and ignorance of the possibility of ASD being a diagnosis/stubborness concerning habits/prescription drug addiction/etc etc etc) I realize that some people that have the disorder (C-PTSD, that is) do "ruminate" about their traumas; I'm not sure to which extent. But, as it is, it's still nowhere near what I do, plus it's not really just about speaking of past experiences and/or traumas, per se - it's probably the way I explain it.

But I believe there's still somewhat of a certain lack of development concerning research when it comes to ASD over HERE, in Brazil. If I would complain of something, it's that the socio-cultural-psychological-contextual differences account for a HUGE difference in the way Asperger's is perceived (and dealt with) over here and yet it seems that, although health organizations and whatnot do create their criteria apparently considering those differences, the "textbook" way of dealing with anything in this country seems to mirror a reality that's far removed from what we have here (but then we're delving into heavy political/philosophical territory - I guess? - and I won't go there). Perhaps when I get more apprised of the things that happen in the psychology community in here as one of them, given that's what I'm majoring at, then I'll be more qualified to pass some really impartial judgement on it.

Anyways, thanks again, everyone. I just need to vent sometimes and it eds up being somewhat too much. I appreciate the tips and clarifications. Typing is good, and it's been a while since I've typed for a long time. The keys feel good here or in the typewriter. Enough rambling; gotta go back to bed.



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19 Mar 2018, 9:05 am

Welcome to Wrong Planet! ^_^

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