I'm not entirely sure what to say, honestly.. I currently quite the mess. Too many things to say really. If I'm honest, a prominent problem in my life is a vicious drug addiction, spawned by some very, very terrible childhood events. Needless to say, I'm not in much of a good spot now. Not doing a very good job grappling with this monkey on my back.
Meh. I loathe focusing on the negative.
Some stuff about me..:
I think the current atomic model is wrong, and over years of collecting microwaves and experimenting with electricity, magnetism, and electromagnetic radiation over and over and over, I have collected data from a few experiments which, as I perceive, cast undeniable doubt on current accepted models. I hope sometime soon to be able to get it all compiled into a journal suitable for peer review.
Thinking about atoms for years straight while usually ripped to shreds high made me a tad buggy truth be told. It was quite maddening.
I also have an intense anxiety about viruses and the prospect of a pandemic caused by some emergent zoonose. Statistically, a global pandemic involving a highly transmissible pathogen that originated in animals, is the greatest threat to humanity at this very moment. Be that as it may, the likelihood of a future pandemic is something that cannot be estimated with our current means, but it can be said with surity that one day, the Big One will happen. And when it does we had better hope we are more prepared and have better global biosecurity. But that's what I want my career to be in. I want to get a degree in virology so with any luck I can be someone who has the ability to experiment with and study viral diseases of all sorts in a biosaftey lab.
03 Apr 2019, 10:02 am
