Hi and welcome. It is the moment when the jigsaw pieces fit together properly and you can see the whole picture!
I have not been assessed yet, but the moment I learned that I had autism traits, things started to make sense! Before I knew this, I was really puzzled by many things.
Despite the difficulties, I do believe there are benefits and it is why I don't want to change. I mean... People have said they want to pray for me and I know God can do the impossible. But it is the abilities I have that others don't have so much that I would miss, as though I get partial shutdowns/shutdowns etc, I would rather have those then loose my character? My uniquness and my picture like thinking. All the positives outweigh the negatives... Though hitting burnout is probably the worst thing I have faced. Had it several times and it is horrible. Shutdowns are also not that nice as I panic... (I can cope better with partial shutdowns which can happen quite frequently and other times I may go without one for a couple of days) But burnouts are the worst as they are not only hard hitting, but recovery can take years. The annoying thing I found was, that when I thought I had recovered from the last burnout, I decided to try a low hours part time job again (One I have so much experience in I can almost do it with my eyes closed though I wouldn't! Though I did do it with a loss of vision when sinking into a shutdown once or twice which is not exactly safe) and I obviously wasnt ready as I would hit another burnout which each time was harder hitting then the last burnout.
But anyway. Welcome. Make yourself at home. Take a virtual seat!
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