some kind of sad excitement

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first of all, hello to you all.

i've just recently discovered WP, and only in the past week come to the realization that i may indeed have Asperger's. someone who has put up with me for years suggested it. i read the wikipedia entry on Asperger's, and it hit me hard. it all matched up. then randomly a few days ago, i was in a store passing by some bookshelves, and i saw john robison's memoir "look me in the eye". so i've been reading it, and making a lot of associations, and reflecting on all this....

it all makes sense. Asperger's seems to explain a lot of behaviors, thoughts, habits, etc. that heretofore have just seemed like eccentricities or odd hangups.

it's beautiful and clear and kind of depressing at the same time. that's how i feel. like opening up the heaviest door in the universe. it is tremendously helpful having something of a framework understand myself that i did not see before. it makes me feel more real. that's good.

i am still in some relative mild state of shock. it hasn't fully hit home yet. as i begin to integrate all this information, i want to seek out a diagnosis. i want to know all that i can.

good to be here.
see you around.

Welcome.

I had mixed feelings regarding ASDs too- infact, I still do. You put it very eloquently.

A diagnosis is a good idea. It's best you be as informed at possible- since 'they' the gatekeepers don't always know all they should themselves.

I found these very useful because it helped me take my symptoms and traits into context:

http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/9.12/aqtest.html

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

*shrugs* Can't take the place of a real diagnosis of course but they can give you some grounding.

it'll pass. once it settles in and helps you make sense of your past, and how "things are" it won't mean much at all. it's an explanation. nothing else changes other than your understanding of "why." welcome to the planet.

Enlightenment is good.

Welcome!

Welcome!

Pleased to see you aboard Wrong Planet, Acacia.

Hi Acacia and welcome to the wrongplanet. I think you will find this site interesting and informative for you. And if you want to get a diagnosis---go for it. For me, I wasn't surprised when I got the Asperger's diagnosis. In fact, I felt relieved. Yes, there are plenty of problems with AS, but there are many gifts too. And I have enjoyed those gifts since before I can remember. I just began some sessions with a social worker in order to deal with some issues concerning me and my family. I am confident I can be a better father/husband for them. I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.

To WrongPlanet!! !

thank you all for your kind replies.
being here and beginning to understand just validates my entire life.
it is really amazing right now.

like you said, nan, it'll pass. nothing really changes. only my perception and understanding.
that's obviously what i need right now.

thanks again