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Hi there *waves*. Married mother of two here. I've been doing a bit of digging, intially due to trying to understand my depressive states and from my research I have actually come to strongly suspect I have Aspergers. My reasons are:

* As a child I learned to talk very late but when I did talk spoke with very long words early on
* My reading and TV habits were (are) very unusual for a girl - I watched Open University programs, Star Trek and read John Wyndham rather then My Little Pony or Mallory towers
* I've always felt somewhat uncomfortable in my own skin and only like loose fitting male t-shirt tops. I also hate make up and feeling like someone has painted a mask over my face so I never wear it. Fashion holds no interest to me.
* I look for patterns everywhere and in everything. I theorise on everything from lip types to traffic movements to dust patterns.
* I've always been considered anti-social. I like to think of it as a good thing and being self sufficient but others do not it seems
* If I go somewhere new I plan it down to the nth degree, looking up maps, all types of transports, costs, food, weather etc.
* I was bullied mercilessly as a child as I would believe anything anyone told me literally. I still have problems with this and sometimes it's only an hour after a conversation I realise they were saying something quite different to what I initially thought.
* My main academic strengths are computing, music and maths - all strong associated with aspies
* Sometimes laugh inappropriately and at things no one else thinks is funny
* Odd speech and writing patterns (apparently)
* Appalling handwriting and often clumsy
* I constantly chew the inside of my mouth
* I struggle to concentrate when there's lots of noise or multiple conversations around me

Some other stuff:
I've done Simon Baron-Cohens test and got 37/50. I've also done the aspie quiz linked to by your facebook group and got 153/200 aspie score and 48/200 NT. I think the aspie scores would have been higher when I was younger (I'm now 35) but I've learned to cope better with certain things like social interaction.

I have synaesthesia, mainly for sound (certain keys have certain colours and sounds have shapes and textures to me). I know that's not an indicator but AIUI they are supposed to be related conditions in terms of genetics.

It's been a bit of a shock to discover so many of what I thought were disparate character features can all be put together under one umbrella term, particularly one which has so much negative publicity. It doesn't seem that bad to be me, at least most of the time.

Anyway, this will probably be my longest ever post. I am usually short and cryptic!

Hi flippergadget welcome, from another mother of 2. I struggled all my life with varied moods not understanding self, my "depressive states" it was like feeling depressed but knowing I wasn't like some think was always missing... discovering Aspergers and associated neurological differences, conditions has kind of given me back the life I never fully understood until now, all good. I often feel we are our own best judge as to whether we come under that big autism umbrella and I also feel its more about finding self, as a label means nothing out reason

Hi asplanet, nice to meet you You make a lot of sense to me, especially about getting your life back. I think the label can help - I'm already thinking to myself that there's nothing wrong with a lot of my oddities, it's perfectly "normal" for aspies! Whatever "normal" is

"Hello," flippergadget. Nice to meet you and glad to see you aboard Wrong Planet.

Hi, asplanet. I hope your stay is long and pleasant.

To WrongPlanet!! !