thanks for all the welcomes!!
as to the writing, i hate speaking. i would much rather write any day as to speak. i have a lot of difficulties conveying things through speech (at least it seems that way to me). then also, i have a tendency to repeat things over and over again in my head. when i was really little, i would sit with the same book and go from picture to picture in the book and have adventures for each picture, and no matter how many times i did it, the adventures were the same. i would do the same thing with blocks--i would line them up and move one and that would be a step in the adventure, then move another, etc. and again, the steps would always be the same. so i think that my writing is an extension of that. i get these story lines in my head and then replay them over and over and over again until i get a chance to write them down.
as to publishing, i could not handle the traditional publishing route. i get bogged down in all the formalities of it--sending in querry letters and proposals and all that bull. it didn't take long before i realized that i couldn't go that route, so i went with print on demand self-publishing. it works for me because i can go ahead and publish and bypass all the formal stuff. there's a little bit of stigma in the writing world about being self-published--like if you don't go the traditional way you're nothing other than a wannabe--but screw it!! ! at least my books are out in print, and even though i really don't make any money with it, i still feel a sense of accomplishment.
as to the public speaking, i too can do that with relative ease. i used to be in theater. i loved it because everything is scripted, and public speaking is basically the same thing. i haven't done so well at getting things set up though because again, it takes marketing yourself to get the speaking engagements. plus i can't do too much of it anyway because it drains me so much. if i could just get up there and do my thing and leave, i could handle it a little better, but it's all the stuff before and after. there's so much interaction that it totally drains me.
well, i hope i've answered some of your questions. thanks again for the welcome.
april
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April Love - Author
"Gift of the Morning"
"Secrets of a City Bench"