13 May 2018, 12:38 am
You k ow something else I think, Ezra? U think your comments about my lack of tech knowledge, etc. proves U couldn't cope with college is rather cruel!
I am reminded of that person who said that, because I am handicapped, I could not go 
. My lack of tech knowledge has lots to do with THE FACT THAT I AM OLD ENOUGH THAT I WENT TO SCHOOL BEFORE YOU WERE TAUGHT SUCH THINGS! My parents didn't know then, either, or anybody else around me...And, as I have meant to detail in this thread, when I tried to go back to school in my 29s and 30s --- ' alone ", incidentally, just as some people here (who are lying their guts out 
, but anyway) say they did, and I should do - it blew up in my face 
.What I also said was that if I could not get past the application, which is quite possible, that I won't be able to attend. And likely won't be able to cope if I did, based on the time I tried regular school it blew up in my face. And I don't know any tech. I am too cognitively disabled (ie stupid) to understand tech much beyond the same basics you yourself know in being able to access this forum - but yeah I get it I'm a cruel horrible useless severely autistic cripple who should burn in hell along with all the other cruel idiots and liars here.
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13 May 2018, 12:48 am
...Okay, Ezra, now you're sacastically expanding on what I'M saying. Hoo boy 
...However, the help I was asking in applying was NOT " to get someone to take the test for me ", but...Well, I think I said much, but much was to try to see that the application people handle the processing of my application properly. Which it did not before. Just to see that it went right this time.
However, I am no longer trying to get help like that here .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
13 May 2018, 12:56 am
...However, the help I was asking in applying was NOT " to get someone to take the test for me ", but...Well, I think I said much, but much was to try to see that the application people handle the processing of my application properly. Which it did not before. Just to see that it went right this time. However, I am no longer trying to get help like that here
.I get it. I get everything wrong because I'm an idiot
. Everything I've said to you was wrong stupid and cruel. They should lock me up in an institution where I won't have any internet access
13 May 2018, 5:43 pm
...Ezra, I don't want to cross swords with you (I could use a saltier metaphor than just " swords", but... 
). Are you spoiling for a jokey " fight " 
? I don't see malice in you as I do others. I want to talk about what this line was meant for by me, not answer other people's comments back...Even though I haven't the time for it now .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
14 May 2018, 5:10 am
...Okay, now I'm going to start detailing my past attempts to go to uni. They were disasters!
I will jump past to set- up for now pasty first, itself a disaster , attempt to go to cc in 1979-80bto either 1985 or 1986, I believe, when, first rendered HL then, I decided to apply to uni. simply thinking of it providing me with a place to stay. the education aside. I lived in Westchester County, in New York State. I applied to the State University of New York.
I applied to 5 of the 6 SUNY camouses that were liberal arts-y oriented. One was in Westchester County, another one was in another corner of the NYC metropolitan area...Long Island
I left out one. the Buffalo SUNY campus. I did not apply to them, perhaps for a combination of luck be leaving one out, perhaps thinking Buffalo's winters were too cold and. Actually perhaps most important. saving $15, only having to pay 75 dollars for five applications rather than 90 dollars for six. I did this entirely myself, just as people here screech st Mt. " Just as they did '" (yeah, right). I did not tell my parents. I sent in all five. I believe I did the thing of, in whatever form. contacting my HS alma mater and asking them to send my transcripts/whatever to them. I waited. Eventually, the five cashed checks all came in.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
14 May 2018, 5:21 am
14 May 2018, 5:45 am
:... Actually, Ezra, you're pretty mean and hateful to me. Especially considering that I'm detailing that I TRIED to " do it all myself " - while homeless - as some - Including you, I guess?? Even though you do have help yourself . - demand.
Why don't you shut the f**k up 
?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
14 May 2018, 6:07 am
...Anyway, though all five most definitely cashed my checks! - I only received replies from three of them . Two of them - 40℅ - did not think enough of me to send me rejection notices. How likely is that? That TWO answers get " lost in the mail "? Twice?
The three answers I did receive were rejections, I got called back for some kind of additional look by the Westchester one. presumably for the ' local
boy " angle. but I didn't get in, Why did SUNY do this to me? Why did they hate me so much? Do you think one of the two nonreceivef replies were acceptances? If I had applied to. Buffalo wouldbI have gotten in? WHY, SUNY, WHY? :
? Sometimes recently I've taken to crying to myself and asking myself that .
Why?.
I guess around here I found out about my HS alma mater not srnding out complete transcripts of my HS years .
There's more years - and tears - to come .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
14 May 2018, 12:26 pm
. - demand.Why don't you shut the f**k up
?Gladly. Bye.
14 May 2018, 12:38 pm
...You seem to have changed your reply from the initial one, which might be the cause of me losing a previous draft . You were again announcing how hateful I was, although this time, you weren't mewling " I'm trying to help you! ". Why?
I rather strongly dislike not-true things being repeated over and over. It does annoy me. Were you annoyed because I was refuting your precious " I did EVERYTHING absolutely alone & and so must YOU!! !! !! !! !! ! " scenario 
?
More to come - later .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
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14 May 2018, 12:43 pm
...I want to show people here thati FOLLOWED the " absolutely all alone " storyline that some here demand of me. AND IT DIDN'T WORK lcry: bThere's more to come .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
14 May 2018, 1:37 pm
14 May 2018, 1:41 pm
) -I did not say that RU said I should have nothing. Ur was an expansion of what I feel that cineot, stre he'd, rather implies.
However, any RU claims of kind intent got pretty shot down by his posts after that, where he got all Arcje Bunker about " taxpayer expense ", then called for the Mods to gag me - prevent me from expressing myself - on a LIFELONG sorrow
- as well as what I could do regarding it You don't have to read my posts if you don't like me, you know .I did not ask the mods to gag you, and I don't think they will. I strongly suspect they pity you and have special rules that apply only to you.
What I did do is point out the fact that locked topics are not allowed for rediscussion, and this certainly would qualify.
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