Never getting to go to uni:-(

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They usually act like they own the road too. If they're not broke down on the side of the road, they're on the side of the road getting a ticket.

...I'm homeless in status -being in a motel on a temporary basis is " homeless " in status - I don't't quite have a iving situation where I could deal with my permanent handicapped status, which I'd need to do for employment - Furthermore. I am still dealing with my hopefully temporary ill status - I still have the CHF weight gain and I am likely to have to have an operation on my eye soon, until those are resolved I can't work.
Also. I don't't have the skills and credentials and connections that you get from going to school.
I don't't really care about impressing you and I care about impressing RU even less .
Frankly, your two-sentence comment is fairly ignorant .








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...Ivwasn't particularly asking or expecting anything from you! I was pointing out you going along with the criticism if me even though it seemed to be talking about the, " emploability value " of differentbkinds of school when he had called me unemployable!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Okay, I anticipated some super-literal response. Yes. I am sick now, with the things I mentioned before.as well as being handicapped, and without a suitable, secure enough place to stay at. I have nowhere, other than high-intensity hospital stays, to try and get Bette. The appearance of the money, just as my body's aging got to me -like my being unable to carry a backpack anymore, as it causes me much back-flanj-orso pain - the money's appearance gave me a temporary respite.
I spent years with the toe infections. I had no aunt or granny to stay with, in-between getting treatment. Perhaps the amputations would't have happened , at least as many, if I'd had such S respite. You just thumb your nose at my illness and handicappedness and act superior. f**k you! There. I said it again. You're S bit too ignorant and teenage and trying to be nasty for Mr to be really mad at you. Maybe someday you will be as crippled and sick and alone in the world as I . You're not the person who was being nasty to me regarding my crippled-ness and belittling my concept of getting around S in on an electric wheelchair, apparently, I'll give you that much.
You said you eewere going away from this line. Why'd you come back? You like to get a rise out of me? Well, you ducceded . The old crip-gimp will try to ignore you now.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Now I'll talk about another one of my disastrous - alone, just like people scream at me I must do - 20th Century attempts to go back to college.
In 1990 or so I was living in Green Bay, Wisconsin. There is a University of Wisconsin campus there.. The Wisconsin system calls their teams the Badgers, and their sweatshirts shoe S cation of a determined badger wearing a Wisconsin-logo shirt.
With thought of taking first steps to go to UW as an adult learner, I arranged to meet some friends there one night, zI was going to meet the guy in charge of returning adult learners and then Mr and the friends were going to go to a concert there that night by a percussion ensemble, playing John Cage music.
I arrived at UWGB that night, and took up a slot what I thought was down the hall from the auditorium where the concert was. There seemed to be some mix-up, as my friends kept not showing up. I waited for them, and sometimes went into an office to talk to someone there.
Perhaps I was seen as " acting weird ", though I did not anything untoward. Perhaps it was what I now see as my Asple-ness. Perhaps I was even seen as staying in that area for too long?

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Continuing... Seen as staying in that area for too long?? Well, I was waiting for my friends, at where we decided I'd wait.
Eventually, the person I spoke to called a guard and had me thrown off campus . I went out to the bud - He called in, I guess the bud driver. I thought he was maybe reversing himself but I guess he was telling him to make sure I didn't't get off the bud in the campus.
And do you know who that person who threw me out was? HE WAS THE PERDON IN CJARGE OF RETURNING ADULT LEARNERS!! ! the person I would have had to go through ! Well, that finished THAT. I didn't't try again, and I never set S foot within UWGB again . Oh, and after I called an assurance of mine who'd gone to UBGB and left S message - I never heard from him again about it, and later on he said " Well, you didn't't call me, that proves you were't interested ". BUT THAT'S NIT TRUE! I -----DID----- CALK HIM ! !! !! !! !! !!
Now, will someone say " Well, you should've approached that Adult Learning dude and maybe he'dve been friendly 5his time, and, in fact, maybe you'dve become friends and you would've gone out for drinks together "? Does anyone here think that? You, KJ, with 5he your-former-lrofessor friends? He was't a professor, the - and he DID have me thrown off campus, after all .
Oh, and that concert? It turned out that the auditorium was a lot closer to me than it appeared to be. My friends never showed up that night though.
Recently, I've a couple of times seen second-hand Badger shirts that somehow made it to California. More recently, I've cried over 5he thought of them- for what could have been.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Alright, not having known the extent of your handicaps, I apologize for overly harsh language.
I'm sorry.









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...Okay, I anticipated some super-literal response. Yes. I am sick now, with the things I mentioned before.as well as being handicapped, and without a suitable, secure enough place to stay at. I have nowhere, other than high-intensity hospital stays, to try and get Bette. The appearance of the money, just as my body's aging got to me -like my being unable to carry a backpack anymore, as it causes me much back-flanj-orso pain - the money's appearance gave me a temporary respite.
I spent years with the toe infections. I had no aunt or granny to stay with, in-between getting treatment. Perhaps the amputations would't have happened , at least as many, if I'd had such S respite. You just thumb your nose at my illness and handicappedness and act superior. f**k you! There. I said it again. You're S bit too ignorant and teenage and trying to be nasty for Mr to be really mad at you. Maybe someday you will be as crippled and sick and alone in the world as I . You're not the person who was being nasty to me regarding my crippled-ness and belittling my concept of getting around S in on an electric wheelchair, apparently, I'll give you that much.
You said you eewere going away from this line. Why'd you come back? You like to get a rise out of me? Well, you ducceded . The old crip-gimp will try to ignore you now.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

]...These last two weeks or so, things have been strange. I kept having, briefly, crises where the money to pay for my continued stay here -ehich is sent by the NYS lawyer, but it's my money- would not come, and I was facing the possibility of being thrown out, but then a temporary patch would come in, a promise from the lawyer to the motel management that the money would come in - but then it didn't't . This opera took up at least some-a couple of days, at o e point I had to leave here. leaving my stuff behind.and go to another more expensive motel for what turned into a couple if days, coming back to my stuff having been moved to another, a touch harder for me as a handicapped oerson, and I could not go out in the morning and do things while all this was going on -including getting my prescription for pills for the CHF weight gain, so I have't had those pills in two weeks or do. and it's made my swelling worse . I had the eye-dictor follow-uo to-day, but I seemed so tired that the eye doctor would't do it, feeling I should go to the hospital ER, which I had mentioned to him. I had sort of hoped he'd call for an operation, and that. that, even going well, would make me obviously " I'll " enough for Social Services to find me a place to stay that wasn't't thus expensive motel .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I wonder if there's a less expensive old residential hotel there. I know an older gentleman from another forum who lives in one. Little rooms the size of a small bedroom. Bathroom and showers down the hall. Pays monthly rent laike an apt building.

...I kind of think not in expensive Santa Cruz. I lived in places like that in San Francisco - however, my being handicapped and some problems I have with going to the bathroom might make that too much for me, too .










"]I wonder if there's a less expensive old residential hotel there. I know an older gentleman from another forum who lives in one. Little rooms the size of a small bedroom. Bathroom and showers down the hall. Pays monthly rent laike an apt building.[/quote]

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I just lost a draft , it's so hard to get things done when my minimal machinery and skills get in the way ...And, my posting circumstances strain my eyes ...
I'd thought of going to the ER but, if I was admitted. I'd be if following a typical hositiuzation, doing nothing for a week or so...I'd be, as of now, pissing my money away keeping this room.olen forvsomewhere to come back to and keel my stuff in... and I would't even get enough sleep in the hospital, with all their endless waking you uo .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

[...I thought of going to the ER - well. I said it already, it's just my not having gotten and taken the pills because I didn't't get them, due to the opera here about having to hang around because of the almost being thrown out on multiple days - And, my being so tired and swollen that getting fully up and dressed takes a lot g time , and I get started late, both being factors.
I did manage, finally, to get a storage space. I could now, finally, put the things of my brother's there -when they could get here, they're not here yet- and put the books and comics U've somewhat splurged on with the thought of the seed of a bookshelf and a collection that U could finally have - But I'd have to get them up to the storage space, which would take a taxi ride - and it would be hard to store them in the storage space, which is now a completely empty space - no furniture or shelves. And it's on the third floor - All three was. More-

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Cintinuing... Really, if everything is on the floor. with my crippledness , having to bend over could be quite hard. As far as immediate storage receptacles for what I have now - Perhaps the boxes they sell in comics ships? Not just for comics, for ' regular " books and anything else too.
Obviously, I am now speaking of having a storage space when I was worried about it before - The money came along, obviously.
You know, I an just so hobbled by my handicapped-ness that I just walk very isliw. I take taxis perhaps you much, like when U am out Kate and, I have a pretty heavy load and I'm fairly far away-straing the buses. This room is harder to get over the steps into to get ub , I really have to pull myself over the doorway to get in. The other evening I almost slipped and fell on the fkoir when getting out if the shower, which in this room has a large floor carrier to climb over unlike the other room I was in here before, where the entry to the shower was flat in the ground . There really is not enough light in this room to comfortably read " real " pubs in my bed - and I have rather blurred vision in reading the kit screen if this ohone . Maybe I really need prescription glasses - and the floaters-whatever in my eye , which I hope this spoken-of possible operation - but Ive been delayed in testing for it - could help..

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!