27 May 2018, 12:31 pm
27 May 2018, 12:51 pm
...Continuing... I tend to be crippled enough 
that I take longer than I think I will, even just to the bus stop a blockish away 
. I think of calling a taxi, but it seemed maybe you late to get myself all dressed and then call S taxi, and if the cab company was busy they might take a while to get here, and throw my timing off.
Actually, too, I do tend to want the housekeeper here to do my room, but if I leave too early, maybe I won't Relay the fact that I want it done too her. It's 10;50 now. The service started at 10:30. That's my excuse, God 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
31 May 2018, 1:32 pm
...Those among you who want me to not go to university might end up being satisfied after all - Maybe I'm no longer in strong enough health to think of going and never will be, plus maybe I never will get that crucial. non-financial- helping hand Maybe those people screaming " YOU HAVE TO DO IT ALL ALONE! I DID IT! " -lying. will be happy then. Likewise, those of you who want pushed into - not locked into - a board and care place or similar will get your wish, maybe I'll have no alternative - Won't you be happy then? 
He said, spitefully:twisted:. Maybe I'll just some more tears in my eyes -blind or no . thinking about what could have been. I think about it - and cry - now .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
31 May 2018, 2:17 pm
01 Jun 2018, 12:29 pm
01 Jun 2018, 12:33 pm
01 Jun 2018, 3:59 pm
...I was downtown at a.Taco Bell and I saw someone else picking up an order there. In this big college town you see a lot of obviously " student "-looking people for me to eat my heart out, at least somewhat, for not being. . Often in sandals, with still-complete feet . This was a nice example. he was entirely too neatly dressed to be called " hippie ", he had hiking sandals'd feet coming out of ever so neatly rolled up jeans, perhaps kinda " Sixties '-y upper-torsi clothes and haircut - " Bohemian "? Folkie "?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
01 Jun 2018, 6:52 pm
Maybe those people screaming " YOU HAVE TO DO IT ALL ALONE! I DID IT! " -lying. will be happy then. Likewise, those of you who want pushed into - not locked into - a board and care place or similar will get your wish, maybe I'll have no alternative - Won't you be happy then? He said, spitefully:twisted:. Maybe I'll just some more tears in my eyes -blind or no . thinking about what could have been. I think about it - and cry - now .Help is available.
Financial aid councilors and academic councilors are but a phone call away, but you actually have to pick up the phone and contact them. In a few weeks, I'll be going back to school, and I'll be enlisting the help of an academic advisor to plan my schedule.
No one expects you to do it completely "alone," but you have to be willing to at least put in SOME work.
01 Jun 2018, 6:57 pm
01 Jun 2018, 8:51 pm
02 Jun 2018, 12:46 am
...Nothing can possibly happen if my all-important HS records are not sent to anyone I apply to, and I DO NOT HAVE THEM ! !! !! !! !! !! The, yes, College-Ibdustrual Complex has shown in the past they will simply responded to me.sending in an application by NOT sending my HS information in and leaving me in the cold!
XFG, I presume you are lucky enough to have " normally " stored HA records and people who will respond " normally " to your application by sending that info in. I don't have that I have outlined here how I DID the " do it all alone " thing that Ezra - who, oddly enough, has plenty of help - rhapsodizes about. I DID JUST THAT with both SUNY abd UWGB, or, basically,.and I described what happened . There is a third still example of this that I haven't gotten around to putting up here. How you be so mean to me, XFG, when you HAVE an enviable " they'll actually send your info in" situation that I don't have, to taunt me ?
There was someone here recently who claimed that they could get copies of my HS records to me, and we spoke in PM. But, now, this third person, after saying they could arrange things so that I could have my HS records, is not following up as of now. I can do NOTHING without my HS records and I have past tears over my attempts to apply that ended in disaster because if the C&UC not doing what they're supposed to do and now you taunt me . Why?
THERE US ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I CAN GET THOSE RECORDS WITHOUT HELP. PERIOD! " Clicking my heels together three times & being REALLY sincere " won't do it!! !
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
02 Jun 2018, 5:42 am
...What it seems many of you don't realize is that sending in " a really sincere application that you filled in ALL BY YOURSELF ", as some of you appear to obsess over, means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING if the follow.up to you sincerely sending your.sincere application in - - is that the people who hold your HS records, WITHIUT WHICH YOU CANNIT BE SDMITTED ANYWHERE, respond to you with a " hee-hee-hee! " as they rip your request for info up and throw it down the toilet , metaphorically if not literally. If I could be reassured that an attempt to apply WOULD be followed by the proper result - which would be best guaranteed by my ownership of copies of the HS records so I could guarantee a place I applied to would get them!
All it would take is some kind of attempt to have my recirds untied . Instead, some obsess over STUPID, yes Ezra, I'm saying it, about an idea that was not yours...of the " take-the-absurdly-long-way-around " stripe of spending, possibly, YEARS trying to get a GED when I have a HS diploma already! Because I should't try to dredge up my for-real HS records, because not only will no one here, unable or unwilling, help me with getting them dredged up, some howl violently at me as if asking for some phone calls and letters is me trying to deflower their 14 year old sister :
! THERE IS NO WAY I can solve the missing HS records myself I am too removed from the ' normal world " and emotionally scarred by what has happened before . And, BTW, I see there was absolute crickets response to my description of the SUNY and UMGB attemots . Again, recently, someone on this board said they could get me an address that, if I write to it, would get me my HS records - But they appear to have backed out now .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
02 Jun 2018, 8:48 am
02 Jun 2018, 10:16 am
! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! The, yes, College-Ibdustrual Complex has shown in the past they will simply responded to me.sending in an application by NOT sending my HS information in and leaving me in the cold! XFG, I presume you are lucky enough to have " normally " stored HA records and people who will respond " normally " to your application by sending that info in. I don't have that
I have outlined here how I DID the " do it all alone " thing that Ezra - who, oddly enough, has plenty of help - rhapsodizes about. I DID JUST THAT with both SUNY abd UWGB, or, basically,.and I described what happened . There is a third still example of this that I haven't gotten around to putting up here. How you be so mean to me, XFG, when you HAVE an enviable " they'll actually send your info in" situation that I don't have, to taunt me ?There was someone here recently who claimed that they could get copies of my HS records to me, and we spoke in PM. But, now, this third person, after saying they could arrange things so that I could have my HS records, is not following up as of now. I can do NOTHING without my HS records and I have past tears
over my attempts to apply that ended in disaster because if the C&UC not doing what they're supposed to do and now you taunt me . Why? THERE US ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I CAN GET THOSE RECORDS WITHOUT HELP. PERIOD!
" Clicking my heels together three times & being REALLY sincere " won't do it!! ! No one was being "mean" to you.
If you're high school records are truly lost, then you should work on getting a GED. Official records, especially ones that existed prior to the practice of storing everything on computers, get lost all the time. My sister's birth certificate was misplaced by the state, so, now she doesn't have one. Being angry over your missing records accomplishes absolutely nothing.
And, before you start ranting about how you shouldn't have to get a GED, dude, if your records are lost, they're lost. There's squat you can do about it. The next best thing, if you really want to go to college, is to work on getting a GED, and, if you are unable to study for a GED, then I fail to see how you intend to handle college-level work (which is significantly more difficult than a GED).
02 Jun 2018, 10:31 am
...I think it's not as simple as you seem to be presenting it. However, I need to know that an attempt by me to apply anywhere will be followed by the place I applied to receiving my HS records. The best way to ensure that is for me to obtain my HS records myself.
In the past, my applying has been answered by my HS records NOT going to the place I applied to - and for someone to tell me " Oh, I betcha-brtcha-betcha they'll follow through THIS time! They've all become magically nicer! So just get your hopes up, and send in an app with no indication that they won't shitcan your app, because I said so! " is, I believe, absurd .
You see, I guess the consensus of many here is , one must never try to contact school records offices, they always do nice things, and I should just forget what records people's' past behavior show they'll do if I just send in an application and trust them to do it, my past experience - and emotional scarring - means nothing, magical thinking about perfect super-dee-duper HS records people is what's important! Right! So I should just never mind what all my past experience shows ...
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
02 Jun 2018, 10:58 am
...Again, there seems to be this 100 percent resistance to trying to find my records - which I know are not completely lost - by contacting the people who would have them - It's just " take HS work 41 years later, that's better than trying to phonrcall-write the people who have your records, because one must NEVER, NEVER, CAN'T, DASSN'T try to get them back, just make no attempt to get them and enter into " - this absurd!! !! !! !! ! " devote years to getting a GED " THAT I DO NOT NEED - it'd make a really keen TV movie, though! - because one must NEVER NEVER NEVER try to dig up your records ?
I believe a GED class would SAY that they are not for people to make second tries! They are for people who did not get a diploma the first time around! I would not be eligible. That is what the GED people would tell me!
But, you want me to forget about the relative simplicity of someone who is not as scarred by what has happened as I am making some phone calls-writing some letters in favor of a TV-movie fantasy - because no one must ever, ever, under any circumstances, try to untie knew'sexisting records. Right. I guess I'm unlikely to get any help here , but can we please drop these absurd justifications for it ?
lesGeek"]
! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! The, yes, College-Ibdustrual Complex has shown in the past they will simply responded to me.sending in an application by NOT sending my HS information in and leaving me in the cold! XFG, I presume you are lucky enough to have " normally " stored HA records and people who will respond " normally " to your application by sending that info in. I don't have that
I have outlined here how I DID the " do it all alone " thing that Ezra - who, oddly enough, has plenty of help - rhapsodizes about. I DID JUST THAT with both SUNY abd UWGB, or, basically,.and I described what happened . There is a third still example of this that I haven't gotten around to putting up here. How you be so mean to me, XFG, when you HAVE an enviable " they'll actually send your info in" situation that I don't have, to taunt me ?There was someone here recently who claimed that they could get copies of my HS records to me, and we spoke in PM. But, now, this third person, after saying they could arrange things so that I could have my HS records, is not following up as of now. I can do NOTHING without my HS records and I have past tears
over my attempts to apply that ended in disaster because if the C&UC not doing what they're supposed to do and now you taunt me . Why? THERE US ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I CAN GET THOSE RECORDS WITHOUT HELP. PERIOD!
" Clicking my heels together three times & being REALLY sincere " won't do it!! ! No one was being "mean" to you.
If you're high school records are truly lost, then you should work on getting a GED. Official records, especially ones that existed prior to the practice of storing everything on computers, get lost all the time. My sister's birth certificate was misplaced by the state, so, now she doesn't have one. Being angry over your missing records accomplishes absolutely nothing.
And, before you start ranting about how you shouldn't have to get a GED, dude, if your records are lost, they're lost. There's squat you can do about it. The next best thing, if you really want to go to college, is to work on getting a GED, and, if you are unable to study for a GED, then I fail to see how you intend to handle college-level work (which is significantly more difficult than a GED).[/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
