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Since I can recall my memories, I really had issues talking to people. I can't seem to be serious. I never had the audacity to ask my doctor if I have could have Aspengers. I live in a Indian community, where Autism doesn't exist. People here think I have some issues because I don't talk to anyone and I look remorse every time they see me. I am a happy person, and people say I have a big personality. I can't make friends. The only way I can make friends is by creeping the heck out of them. Today, I had my high school orientation, and it seems so difficult to listen to teacher talking. I can't look directly in someones eye, and I can't listen either. I am a math addict, but my grades doesn't seem to show off. Not to be arrogant, but I know that I am intelligent. I really have a passion to read. Especially strange topics. The only issue I have is with English. I have interest in strange/vague topics like Epistemology or Theoretical Physics. My grades are not poor, but it doesn't fit me. It pisses me off that people who have less of idea get higher grades. It especially aggravates me when people doubt me when i say I want to grow up to be a Theoretical Physicist. Can this be a sign of Aspengers. My friend tells me that I cant have Aspengers. And another thing, my friend says that I am good at computers. I don't think so, but I really like to code and make spontaneous things like calculators or find out all of the square roots from 1-100. And also, i have a hard time memorizing names, phones numbers, and I can't win at playing games. This includes sports games, video games, I mean any types of games. I suck at games.

I love reading the Wikipedia. I can't get my eyes off of it. I also like history
Help me! I need to know if I have Aspengers, and I need a idea to ask my doctor to diagonse me. I don't want people think of me as a sullen child with guilt trap in its eyes.

I hate sunlight. It enrages me. I hate it.
Also, people think I am very rude.
I also love to give facts!
And I hate certain noises, like when the people who live upstares distract me, and when people scream. But sometimes, I ignore such noises, that my parents think Im weird. And I suck at giving speech, but overall I believe I have a great personality. I really like to joke, but sometimes I don't get jokes. And oh I forgot, I only have 1 friend. The others are my alter egos.

It does sound like you may have Aspergers, based on my experience of Aspergers anyway. It also sounds like you have read a lot on the topic. Just be careful with that, because when you read about different 'conditions', you can pick up information on the symptoms and this can change your behaviour without you realising. Then when you look at your behaviour again, it will seem even more like you have the condition you were reading about. I think this is especially common with people who read about Aspergers as everybody has some Autistic Spectrum traits which is a starting point for developing more traits as you read about them. I know what I'm trying to say but I'm not sure if it makes sense in writing!

Do you live in India? There must be some doctors who give diagnoses? Keep trying to find a doctor who will take you seriously! It is difficult to get a diagnosis in the UK also, and that is when people believe autism exists!

Good luck!

No I don't live in India, I live here in NYC in a place where there are tons of Indians.

I think it was Kierkegaard who said, "Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom."

With Asperger's or anything akin to it, sometimes I like to think we are much more free than NT's. Mostly because we aren't governed by social conventions. If you do feel the way you're feeling, there is a good chance you have AS. My best bet would be to try to speak with a doctor....or several. You realizing that you are different is important. It speaks of your character. It is also important because it helps create stability and awareness of what is around you. Awareness is important to nurturing your talents and your personality. Tell your parents that. Tell the doctor that. You don't want YOUR talents to go to waste and understanding YOURSELF and YOUR relation to the world is integral to how you function as an individual.

It might tough but don't quit on yourself, kid.

thanks for the help. I'm thinking of an plan to tell my doctors.

Whatever condition you may or may not have, your description of yourself makes me think of someone who is preciously unique. Don't view yourself as less than other people. Every little quirk adds up to the special combination that you are. Keep loving the things you love to do, and feel proud of them.