Have you ever had a melt down in school
I once did in my reading class. I have dislexia and have trouble reading my teacher put me in front of this kid who smokes. I really can't stand the smell of ciryeretts. I feel like I am about to vomit. And he smelled like he just smoked from lunch. Yeah I know bad high school right. I think I was getting sick at that point and I felt like I was going to throw up any second. Then the teacher asks me to read. I keep swallowing to keep from vomiting right there. Then the kid behind me takes off his jacket and puts it on the desk and lays down on it so now I smell it even more. So I whimpered out that I had to go to the bathroom and I went there and cried and cried and just stayed there for the rest of the class. But I did get a detention for skipping class my mom and my aid did fight it and it was only a Lucy detention. I don't know was that a meltdown or not? If you have any stories Just reply to this. Thanks for reading and I hope spell check helped you read. I typed this on an iPod so I don't know how reliable it is.
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I don't think I've ever experienced a meltdown while at school, though I have had shutdowns while at school, and meltdowns when I got home. I have had a couple meltdowns while at work, though.
EDIT: Actually...I remember having a meltdown once in Kindergarten when the teacher decided to rearrange the classroom. I didn't like change, clearly.
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I'm pretty sure what you had was a meltdown; if not, then it was pretty close.
I've had several at school. Once when I got extremely frustrated in science class, I started pulling on my hair, banging my head on the table, throwing things around and screaming at people who stared at me. Another time was when I got stuck doing most of the work for a project with a friend, I started pulling my hair and punching and choking myself.
I feel bad about one that happened about two months ago. I got stuck doing most of the work for a project again and then we left one thing out, and I started banging my head on the table. The teacher got scared, so he let me off the hook and kept going, "It's alright, just calm down. Calm down, okay?
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This is what happens to me. I've never really experienced a meltdown where I've shown people how I truly am when I'm upset. I slam things, throw things, scream, pull my hair, cry, ramble to myself... those kind of things, at home. When I'm at school, I just walk away, hide, or I stop talking altogether and keep myself from getting to that point. The main thing is that I only have meltdowns when I'm by myself- I don't like people seeing me like that.
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I had a few meltdowns in high school, I think. On one occasion my (10th year) social studies class was told to spend 15 minutes with our heads down doing nothing, but I couldn't just sit still and do nothing so I read a book instead. The teacher demanded I put the book away and then took it from me because apparently it was vitally important that I sit still and do nothing for those 15 minutes. I don't actually remember what I did, but my mother says I told the teacher to "f**k off." But I know I did a lot more than that.
In the 5th grade, I remember picking up my teacher's favorite coffee mug and throwing it as hard as I could during a meltdown. I don't remember what caused it or how long it lasted, but I feel guilty about it on and off.
I used to shutdown in school, when I was in primary school. It would be triggered in the lunch hour, and I would hide in a toilet curled up against the door on the floor (sounds disgusting when I put it like that) and I would have no sense of time for around 1-2 hours. I got told off a few times, but since it wasn't that regular mostly I was ignored....thank goodness for that.
Glad I've never started screaming in public before, somehow managed to control myself if I've ever felt like one is coming up on me.
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I had tantrum type meltdowns in elementary school. In middle school, they were rarer, but more intense. Since I had figured out that that kind of behavior wasn't viewed as normal in that age, I panicked and ran away instead. They had to initiate searches and stuff, I'm just glad they managed to find me without bringing in the police or anything. They usually called my parents, had my class search the area, and told them not to approach me if they found me, but tell the teacher where I was, so they could send my dad in. In hindsight, I'm not sure if a tantrum would have been any worse than all of that.
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Yes, OP that sounds like a meltdown to me.
I had regular meltdowns, middle school was the worst as I'd have meltdowns pretty much every lesson and in front of everyone - I was badly bullied, and as we didn't know I was an aspie it was just assumed I was pathetic which in itself made meltdowns more common.
My last meltdown was in college last year; For weeks students had excluded me from group work so I was struggling, autism support team were ignorant so added to problems, I'd been to the job centre before class which stresses me out and meant I had to rush to class so was gross and hadn't eaten all day, class was in a different room to usual with bad lighting, and we had an exam. While in class they were talking about autism and someone made a light-hearted joke - I questioned this joke in case they were being offensive, what I didn't realise is one of them was autistic too, so that made me feel awkward. Then meltdown - I had to try to explain what was happening to the teacher, who was deaf and ignorant of autism, she didn't know what to do as if I left I'd miss my exam...but I had to leave, as soon as I left the room it kicked-off punching the wall then escaping into the stairwell for half an hour crying uncontrollably. Fun fun
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I had regular meltdowns, middle school was the worst as I'd have meltdowns pretty much every lesson and in front of everyone - I was badly bullied, and as we didn't know I was an aspie it was just assumed I was pathetic which in itself made meltdowns more common.
My meltdown was in college last year; For weeks students had excluded me from group work so I was struggling, autism support team were ignorant so added to problems, I'd been to the job centre before class which stresses me out and meant I had to rush to class so was gross and hadn't eaten all day, class was in a different room to usual with bad lighting, and we had an exam. While in class they were talking about autism and someone made a light-hearted joke - I questioned this joke in case they were being offensive, what I didn't realise is one of them was autistic too, so that made me feel awkward. Then meltdown - I had to try to explain what was happening to the teacher, who was deaf and ignorant of autism, she didn't know what to do as if I left I'd miss my exam...but I had to leave, as soon as I left the room it kicked-off punching the wall then escaping into the stairwell for half an hour crying uncontrollably. Fun fun
Yeah, I think that would be enough to set me off too. Just reading it (the situation, not your reaction) makes me kind of fidgety.
Had them frequently in elementary school, earlier grades it started out as lots of crying, anxiety, followed by needing to be comforted but as I got older (4th to 6th grade) I started beating myself up, I stopped doing this in the 7th and 8th grade because my dad was a teacher at my middleschool and watched out for me plus I was really close with several of the coaches and other teachers. Once I started highschool things got really bad, lots of depression, frustration, isolation and manic behavior. I would frequently try to do things to get attention or feel important ,threaten to hurt myself. Stuff got the worst in 10th, people really started picking on me, saying hurtful stuff and my grades began to suffer. I would go out of my to fake being sick just so I didn't have to go to school because of how much fear and stress it gave me, just seeing the school made me feel sick to my stomach. Eventually I tried killing myself by ODing on some meds after a BIG melt down, though I still wonder if it was more one of those ploys for attention/cries for help as opposed to me wanting to shed the mortal coil forever. I got committed for a little bit and a doctor recommended I get homeschooled and that's how I finished HS.
I've had plenty of meltdowns between then, the worst being when I enlisted in the navy in an attempt to "bootstrap my life". I was (still am) living with my folks, had tried multiple things and thought if I joined the military they would make me right. Well, stuff didn't work out at all and it was easily the most horrific experience in my life. Every little tiny thing I did wrong the RDCs knew and tormented me for, like I have trouble tying knots, opening latches etc. I can do it but its very hard and takes me longer, I have big issues with hand-eye coordination, always have. The RDCs did not care though and people eventually refused to help me out or cover for me and I eventually just exploded on myself. I gave myself a black eye and bloodied my nose after spilling some ink on a scarf I was trying to stamp.
Needless to say I scared my RDCs so much they totally changed their tune with me and I got processed out and sent back home soon.
Most of my meltdowns come from moments of extreme frustration or I'll want to strike at someone but know I can't so I'll just hurt myself instead. I know its bad but its just something I've done and retreat to.
Almost had a public one today. I had been speaking to my programming teacher (who is very nice, by the way) about some assignment stuff, which is stressing even though it went well. On my way out, I almost bumped into two girls (had a little step dance to get out of their way, I'm aware I look a bit weird when I do that), and they kept making fun of me behind my back, saying stuff like "he probably tried walking between us", "could be he tried to have a go at us" etc. Of course they made sure to speak loudly enough for me to hear them. Since a majority of females on this campus are nursing students (it's the biggest program in terms of students, and even if the amount of males is increasing, it's still heavily dominated by women, while the other programs are somewhat dominated by men), i considered stopping them and ask whether they've learned about autism yet, and if so, if they even passed their exams. I'm in a stressed out phase, so to people who are knowledgeable about it, I could just as well wear a neon sign flashing "AUTISTIC" above my head. I keep stimming, I'm staring right into the floor, I'm forgetting to shave or even trim, my clothes don't match, partly because I don't bother, and partly because I forget to wash them, I have the occasional verbal or physical tick (I'm usually rather good at suppressing them when not alone), and I even catch myself rocking publicly. But I realized talking to them would most probably give me a complete meltdown, so I went to my my car instead. I spent the trip home yelling and speeding. Within the "safe" limit where the police wouldn't have stopped me under normal circumstances.
I don't get why adults act like kids like that. Especially at a university, where you'd think there was a minimum amount of intelligence involved.
