I guess I will start by saying that I am not diagnosed, but am considering.
Anyway, after I got done with HS I thought I was pretty much through with day to day group situations in the classroom. However, I am in my junior year and have to meet my foreign language requirement. Basically, I find learning foreign languages extremely difficult. Then the teacher says something like "find a partner; oh yeah, speak in Spanish".
This is so far outside of my comfort zone. Being told to go around and the room and talk to random people would be hard enough if if it was in English, but it is in Spanish. Where I stand currently is I am doing pretty poorly in the class. The class has become like torture, and I just basically sit around feeling (and probably looking) awkward. Now, more and more I find myself just not even going to class. I am a night owl and it is an 8:00AM class, so that makes it tough. Additionally, I just hate being there. I think my teacher is starting to dislike me because of my performance and effort.
Since I found out about AS I have wondered if my difficulties with learning foreign languages are related to it (aside from the class-room interaction). For me vocab memorization is cake. I just spend some time with it, and it comes naturally. Everything else is really hard. Syntax is difficult, and I just can not seem to remember it. Also, listening exercises are very difficult. Whenever somebody is speaking in Spanish it all just becomes an incomprehensible blur. So does anybody else have similar problems?
I'll try to wrap this up to keep this readable, but I also had a few more questions/comments. Should I seek a diagnosis? I am currently being treated for ADHD with adderall, and I do not want to risk that. The medication has been profoundly helpful in allowing me to concentrate. Eh, it is all just getting kind of frustrating; especially in my personal life. It seems like the opportunities that I have to hang out with others are very rare. I am sure I am unaware for some social blunders that I commit, but in general I think that people's perception of me is positive. However, I freely acknowledge that I am introverted, and I think that may be what many people assume about me. IE, that I do not want to talk to or hang out with them, even when I want to really badly. I am not really sure if anybody has advice, but if anybody has like experiences I would enjoy hearing about those as well.
03 Dec 2006, 7:46 pm
