Those years are really crappy. The whole bullying/ostracism thing went really vicious on me then. . .
It's like they are not as full of sh*t in earlier or later years.
They won't be themselves.
They won't let others be themselves.
Boys are so desperate to prove they are stereotypically tough and grown up when they obviously aren't - they are just a bunch of dumb scared kiddies whose confidence has to be raised by bullying. They embody everything encompassed by the words "jerk" and "loser". No one cares so much if you do or have something slightly different when you are 8 or 17.
Crystalmirror wrote:
A lot of the time I wish I could have stood up for myself, like punched their lights out or something, and maybe then they'd have left me alone.
Well I was stuck in a loop in which I would lose my temper and beat up some bully and then they would either gang up on me after school or bring somebody bigger along. They
never acknowledged anything, but
then, if I did run away when it was 5 on 1 or there was somebody 2 years ahead (
and I did pick my fights), then they would say I was a coward for weeks - until I got fed up again and so on. . .
So it's a bloody lie that standing for on oneself will earn their respect; not that it shouldn't be done - but it makes the idiots even more vicious. It's not surprising that each now and then someone resorts to some serious violence - they know this very well.
I've seen people not used to being bullied breaking down when teased
a little bit and no one calling them wussies or whatnot. It's not what you do but who you are and how that goes with their general spite - much like racism. They don't care nor show any mercy; moral rules and considerations apply to everyone else. I remember being sick in bed in a school trip - letting them know about it so that they would cut it out and almost being thrown onto the floor mattress and all.