I'm sorry, I know exactly how you feel because you described me perfectly when you described yourself. I struggled so hard just to wake up, get dressed, go to work, be at work, and come home that it took 100% of my energy and concentration just to do the bare minimum. And I was not exactly a great success at work or at interviews. Even if I did pass an interview and get a job, I was fired afterwards. I depended on my mom for money and felt ashamed of myself for being a failure.
Possible options:
- get a job where you can work from home on the computer, and never have an interview or socialize at work.
- try different meds for depression; I tried several different antidepressants before finding one that really helped me a lot.
- try something for anxiety; perhaps Atavan or Xanax.
- perhaps you need to change your therapist. Some therapists are much more helpful than others.
- practice social skills at a volunteer position, where you will be appreciated and it's not so stressful.
- if you absolutely cannot make it at work, perhaps you will need to go on disability. I had to do that and I feel pretty good now.
- even though you said you can handle your feelings on your own, try talking to other Aspies here about how you feel; you may gain a lot of insight and self-esteem from it.
21 Jun 2011, 1:15 am
