Sometimes I can deal with a noisy environment, if it allows me to zone in and big-time concentrate/focus on something. Trouble is, doing so means I stop paying any attention to everything else I'm supposed to be hearing - coworker questions, phones, customers, etc.
My biggest problem is dealing with people. Demands. Games. Gossip. Being irrational. Backstabbing. Arguing. Lying. Cheating. Stealing. Aaaaaaa!! !! And all on a level that I can't even begin to fathom..
I about had a heart attack from stress (no joke) on a job I had 3 jobs ago. Instead, I ended up with chronic fatigue and more as my body just couldn't take any more (I was on that job 10 years).
2 jobs ago I came very close to getting fired because I was starting to have meltdowns when customers would call. Heck, just the phone had to ring and I'd start on the way to meltdown because I knew it was a customer. I lasted a year on that job.
This job (which I'm 3 days from being laid off from) now, I'm starting to be told I have a "bad attitude" because I am on the breaking point dealing with coworkers who won't do what they are supposed to do (and then I get in trouble because they aren't, even though I'm not their supervisor). I've been 8 months here.
I'm burned out, and freaking out because I don't know if I CAN find a job I don't have to deal with people in, and that I can also do physically (since my ruined physical health -- while a lot better -- still means I can't do real physical stuff like be on my feet for hours at a time).
Where's the job where I just sit in a quiet back room somewhere, organizing things?
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I would rather have my liver pecked out by a giant crow than spend a day at the mall. But I'd pay money to see a giant crow eat a mall.
Your Aspie score: 155 of 200 * Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 49 of 200 * You are very likely an Aspie
21 Jun 2010, 6:29 pm
