Working below your capabilities

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Before I crashed and hardly anybody knew about me being as Aspie, I worked at the peak of my capabilities and I was happy. I got offered a promotion into either team-manager or expert role. Tried team-management for a while, but soon knew that was not my 'calling', so got into expert role instead. Never wanted to promote into something else.

I interpreted something in my planning completely wrong (not my fault, actually, they should have put it better on the document). As far as I interpreted it, I totally completed that part of the planning, but that's not how the upper management had interpreted it. Got a shoulder injury, worked at home. Once back, worked serious overtime, evening, week-ends, you name it. You see, the person they hired to 'cover for me' during my sickness had provided me with shoddy preliminary work and I had to fix that under some serious time constraints. Read back to that shoulder injury, and me working as best as I could at home, which is even exceeding what someone being injured is expected to do. That meant even more time constraints. Naturally, that is not a healthy work environment and during the last days leading up to that deadline, I crashed.

Now, everyone (should )know(s) I'm an Aspie and everything has completely changed. AFAIK, upper management is still blaming me for my shoddy interpretation. The temp who sabotaged my work is now in that expert role position and naturally, that really stings. I'm working well below my capabilities and below my salary too (they can't change that). A colleague and friend of mine is telling me he'd like to get paid for work well below his capabilities, but then again, that's an NT and I just don't work that way.

28 years for me to go to full pension, if i dont get downsized by then. U usually get bought out though, if that happens.

Doublepost

I've always worked below my capacity in office jobs because to me, they are nothing but a way to pay the bills and allow me to pursue my creative interests, which are many. My family sometimes gets on my case about it, telling me I'm "selling myself short." They don't understand me at all. I am at heart and artist and a writer and an aspiring scholar. My fondest wish is to be a humanist, someone who does the utmost with all their creative and intellectual abilities.

This means I need a job that will allow me the time to pursue those things. And that's why I've never tried to climb the company ladder, and have remained at the same job level all my life. I do not want to put in hours and hours of overtime.

This plan has enabled me to write poetry, books, a musical, take sewing lessons and acting lessons, and act in a theatre company for two years. I wrote a play that was produced on stage in New York and Sydney, AU. I also do digital graphics and my designs won a competition and were featured in a notecard collection. I also plan to learn the piano. These things mean the world to me and I will not give them up.

As money come with it and power i don't care my stress level