So as some of you on here know I have just graduated from college and am currently working on the practical application side of my goal. To obtain a job in the U.S. Dpeartent of Immigration in their clerical administrative department. I will be working in a career field that I love and I will have the weekends off. WWWEEEEEHHHOOOO.
So anyway after I graduated I was really stressed out over the fact that I had lost access to all that nice Federal Aid money along with the scholarship money based on my time in the military. I HAAAATE the job I am in but I cling to it because currently I am getting paid $12.75 an hour which will go up to $14.88 if I stay long enough. I could have moved up with that company but once I discovered what else I could have I said screw retail I'm going Federal Government.
I discovered that I had problems with understanding that this volunteer opportunity I had taken was going to be like a grade in a class. After all I need these people as a reference. If I had to say why My initial performance was lackluster it would be for this reason: According to the U.S. Federal jobs website I need more experience with Microsfot Word, Excel, Powerpoint, you get the idea. Anyway when I started searching for opportunities, one place inparticular aggressively sought me out and I made a dash for them. I kinda had that desperate mentality that I used to have whenever I lost one entry level job and went for another. As it turns out the volunteer opportunity that I took uses their own software and not Microsoft........great..
My problem is that I want the path to my goal to be as straight and problem free as possible. Much to my disappointment I am not one of those people in life who glides through every task given to them with ease.....I hate those people........because they have it easy and I don't.
Once I started the opportunity everything was hunky dory for a few weeks until my work schedule started going a little wacky due to the fact that we were short staffed on night crew.........that was not a fun experience.......a combination of them wanting the same amount of productivity out of a three person crew what a four person crew should have done and me just wanting to do enough to hold on to the job until I get what I really want.........yeah..............but I managed to survive and I had a talk with my volunteer coordinator where I volunteer at. She said that the reason why things were so topsy turvy on their end was that the office staff at that time was not used to dealing with volunteers a and were reluctant to do anything with me as far as giving me a more structured environment to work in. On my end I should have realized that hey this is like a class where you get a grade, you need these people for a reference. However I was so mentally stressed from being switched to third shift that it caused me problems.
Today I really sat down and I really thought about what I needed to do on my end and I made a decision that I have to man up and work harder and be more focused at the places where I volunteer. Otherwise I am wasting my time and theirs and no government job for me.
25 Oct 2013, 1:21 pm
