Am I alone?

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I am wondering if anyonje is the same as me in that due to my aspergers and other mental conditions I am completely unable to work because the second I go around any authority figure my mind instantly sees them as an extreme threat to my life and well being and every day thereafter I get more and more afraid, mean, and vicious and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I stayed in the situation for more than a couple of weeks that I would lose control and end up killing the boss out of sheer terror and unspeakable panic. Its to the point where if anyone no matter who it is even my parents try to tell me what to do or make even the smallest of threats my mind instantly goes into panic survival mode and I begin lashing out. Am I alone in this being unable to cope with authority figures?

Sounds like maybe Oppositional Defiance Disorder in a way?

I have a hard time with authority figures. I am afraid of them. However, I don't usually lash out in an aggressive way. It is more passive aggressive (basically, I do what I want to do regardless of what the boss says and try to keep the boss at a safe distance at all times.) The only time I lash out is when an authority figure gets smart with me. I automatically go back emotionally to when I was a little kid and my mom was yelling at me for no reason, taking her anger out on me. I go into a rage and just want to quit. I have a hard time controlling myself. I don't get violent but I sometimes get argumentative and start yelling.

I don't think I will ever fit into the social structure where I have to submit to authority. I don't recognize anyone's authority over me. To me, all people are on an equal level.

I have issues with authority figures too, but I'm more avoidant when I can get away with it. Less interaction=less trouble.

I don't know if I am the same as you are, but It has took me a long time in my life to learn how to keep a job. This is because it just takes me so long to be able to trust anyone in authority such as managers and things.

When I was younger I would just fight everyone because I thought they was against me, and then I would get fired, arrested or both, in one particular case.

These days I just try my hardest to try and trust people more. it does seem to be working out.

I don't really know what else to say to be honest.