Self-destructive at work, thinking of quiting

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So I've been signed off work for the past 3 weeks due to depression and anxiety. This has been an ongoing thing at work for several months now (I started this job last August). I've tried to fight it, but I keep flipping out at work and feel so frustrated. What's annoying is that my line manager and her manager have been ridiculously supportive, trying to make adjustments and stuff, but none of it is working.

Today I met with my line manager for the first time in 3 weeks and basically said that I want to hand in my notice. My logic is that I think I would be better in a less people-focussed job; I have a background in statistics and finance so thinking of becoming a quant. But I feel so ridiculously guilty for letting my boss and her manager down because of how supportive they have been to me. And now after saying that I want to leave, I really feel like I've disappointed them - but yet I feel it's the right decision because I don't want to flip out again at work and I would be more under control in a different environment.

Actually had a classic aspie moment as well today, since my manager said to send an e-mail (to confirm my wish) but I took this too literally and sent like a two line e-mail saying I wanted to hand in my notice ! ! Now feel doubly guilty because it looks like I'm not putting thought into my decision.

Really finding this very difficult to handle. Does anyone have any advice? Am I right to feel guilty? Should this influence my decision to leave or not? Really quite sad atm .

Pursue the "Quant" position.

I'm glad you didn't "burn any bridges." You could probably use your previous employers as a good reference.

How long were you at this job?

Please don't give up. Perhaps you and your previous job just didn't "fit into each other." I'm not using platitudes, by the way.

Perhaps the "Quant" position might be more your style.

I'm "on the fence" about whether you should immediately search for another job, or "rest" for a month or so. In most cases, I would start looking NOW.

Hi. I think it's the right decision for you to quit your job especially when you find the environment very difficult to deal with. I can sense in your post that people skills is your weakness or you find it very difficult or uncomfortable to do. Go and find a job that leads to your passion. Make a strategy on what careers/skills to take to eventually land your dream job. Getting a job you're passionate with not only makes it feel like a hobby, but also it will help you excel at your responsibilites, creatively solve problems and in overall be a better employee you never thought you could!!