This is one of those things that I couldn't imagine happening, and though it's a wonderful thing, I'm a little freaked out! Last year I was teaching at a private school for kids with severe emotional difficulties. I loved the work and the kids but I have trouble with boundaries, and over time their problems became my problem. By April I was Zombie Woman and making too many poor decisions. At one point I snapped at a boy and the principal saw ... not a pretty scene! I wasn't fired on the spot, but I wasn't asked back. Devastated, I felt like a worthless failure, and I figured no one there would ever want anything to do with me ... such a great bunch of people. I found a new job and I'm happier, and praying I don't screw this one up .... and since I realized I'm on the spectrum I'm finding great support where I am now.
Well, this afternoon I got a text from one of my former colleagues inviting me to join them for drinks. I couldn't resist the urge to see how things are, so I went. To my amazement everyone was glad to see me, the principal who witnessed my temper had put a good word in for me at my new job, and my closest friend (who I assumed was through with me) understood me better than I understood myself. I didn't know that I was right, my old coworkers are even better than I thought - so now I feel like I'm surrounded by angels from past and present jobs. All I need to do now is to learn how to work with my dubious executive brain function, improve my judgement, and watch my big mouth, and I might dare to hope .....
27 Feb 2016, 12:06 am
