I give up

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So, here's the rundown. In Jan '08, I entered into the navy after losing nearly 100 lbs without even knowing I had Asperger's syndrome. God, those petty officers hated me. I received a general under honorable condition discharge of September the same year due to issues that, I later realized, were autism related.

Cut to some years later, I work as hard as I can in ITT in the most lucrative major I can think of: web design. Everyone needs web design, don't they? but no... no, when they waste your time with classes on FONTS, you kind of realize that they were just yanking your chain. "We could teach you important skills that you'd get employed for....but that'd take MUCH more money". Lovely little vampires...

Cut to the years after that where I worked for Walmart first, and then H-E-B, both as a cart pusher, and both times, I was bullied, harassed, and overworked to the point of exhaustion where I just couldn't function anymore. I spent my days off asleep, and was constantly coming home exhausted to the point where I couldn't hold a conversation or angry at the way I was treated. They called my house because I put a pirate flag on the cart pushing machine on Sept 19th. Oh, it's just a holiday that's been in effect for 14 years. Of course I'm in the wrong.

So now, my thoughts turn to acquiring SSI, but I learn that that is beyond my reach as well because of the assets my parents hold. They've done much better in life than me, y'see. So, I haven't worked enough to secure SSDI, and my parents have too many assets for SSI, WHICH THEY WILL NOT HAVE if they need to support my existence like I'm some kind of lamprey eel with an addition to MMO games.

I'm left wondering what the heck I should do with my life. It might be obvious to read that my intellect is intact, but that's nothing more than something that lets me be aware of how much in life is denied to me. I'll never be married or have children, never see glory in the military, never have a job that means anything or even a job at all. It's not intellect, it's being aware of the straight jacket around me. Truth be told, the idea of me ending everything has entered my mind a few times. Because this? This isn't living. This is shameful.

Sorry to hear of your struggles - I'd say whether you're religious or not, the best thing for you to do right now would be to resign yourself and have faith in a higher purpose or meaning than the purely material things of this world, money, career, relationships, etc all of which will eventually become dust.

This is wisdom that exists both in world religions and secular philosophy.

And beyond that, if there are people who are just straight-up cruel to you, take schadenfreude in the fact people who are perpetually bad have empty, meaningless lives, and just look for something or someone else to blame and take out their anger for why their lives are so utterly sh***y.

Regardless of your parents assets, keep trying to get on disability, they may not give you money as long as your living at your parents, but it enables you to afford to move out once your on it because they will start paying you once you move out. Get an disability attorney to fight for you, they work for part of your claim as cost, then get ready to move out on your own, if your able. secondly, never listen to what the disability people tell you the first couple times you try to get on it, they most always refuse you the first couple times you try.

If you receive SSI benefits, you are allowed to work a certain number of hours each week to supplement your benefits. The hours aren't much, but it gives recipients the chance to get out and do something they enjoy or know well. If you work more hours than they normally allow, your benefits will begin to be reduced (but, reductions are NOT 1-to-1, so it still benefits you).

There are lawyers who specialize in doing all the legal work for your benefits application(s). They get paid (25 percent of the overall amount while your application is pending) only if you are awarded your benefits. An application can take up to two years to be resolved.

Once you are awarded your benefits, you become eligible for other benefits (if you choose) including Medicaid and/or Medicare health insurance, a small monthly amount of EBT food benefits, public-housing or Section 8 housing, some educational benefits and even a free cellular telephone if you apply for it. Also, your state of residence will probably "pitch in" with a few of its own benefits.